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So much has happened this past week. Josh got drunk on Saturday, I had to say goodbye to all of my teachers, I got stoned, made love, and hung out with Marion.
Today, I graduate from high school. It's all kind of weird. I've been looking forward to this for a long time, but now it doesn't really seem like anything. I still have to go to school after this, I'll still be poor, I'll still be living at home. I understand that graduating is a "milestone" in life, but really, it's not such an achievement anymore. I'm happy to be graduating though. I'm happy that I'm past this stage in my life. I'm happy that my friends are able to graduate with me. The only downside to graduation is all of the unfimiliarity that lies ahead. Everything from now on will be unfamiliar. In high school, you're used to all the familiar faces (even if people are just acquaintences), in the real world, there aren't many familiar faces. In high school, we were institutionalized. We knew when class started and ended by the ringing of a bell, and by certain time blocks throughout the day. Now we're free. No more bells, no more consistant time schedules, no more confining green gates. I sort of feel like Red from Shawshank Redemption. I'm so used to being on the inside, that I don't really know how to live on the outside. I need to stop all these thoughts. I actually am happy about this. I understand that I'll loose a lot of friends, but in turn, I'm sure I'll make a lot of new ones too. High school was a great experience that I'll remember forever. Tonight, I'll be proud of myself for making it this far.
My mom wants to throw me a graduation party, but I don't know. I don't really like parties all that much, but I really need money, so I just might be having one.
Tabula Rasa.
Today, I graduate from high school. It's all kind of weird. I've been looking forward to this for a long time, but now it doesn't really seem like anything. I still have to go to school after this, I'll still be poor, I'll still be living at home. I understand that graduating is a "milestone" in life, but really, it's not such an achievement anymore. I'm happy to be graduating though. I'm happy that I'm past this stage in my life. I'm happy that my friends are able to graduate with me. The only downside to graduation is all of the unfimiliarity that lies ahead. Everything from now on will be unfamiliar. In high school, you're used to all the familiar faces (even if people are just acquaintences), in the real world, there aren't many familiar faces. In high school, we were institutionalized. We knew when class started and ended by the ringing of a bell, and by certain time blocks throughout the day. Now we're free. No more bells, no more consistant time schedules, no more confining green gates. I sort of feel like Red from Shawshank Redemption. I'm so used to being on the inside, that I don't really know how to live on the outside. I need to stop all these thoughts. I actually am happy about this. I understand that I'll loose a lot of friends, but in turn, I'm sure I'll make a lot of new ones too. High school was a great experience that I'll remember forever. Tonight, I'll be proud of myself for making it this far.
My mom wants to throw me a graduation party, but I don't know. I don't really like parties all that much, but I really need money, so I just might be having one.
Tabula Rasa.