Smoking like a Chimney
So yesterday, after everything i find out about this girl i am seeing, it appears that Koz has been slandering my name to her, and this dude who she used to sdate was diggign up all the dirt he could on me (even though it was from ike two years ago, lovely) I got fed with her before work, and said, i'm through. So, on top of that, she goes and fucks her ex, and yeah, that was the killer. I am so lonely, that i am not even fucking walking away, because honestly, i think there is something there with me and her. But yeah, i hurt like hell, on top of that. Then, her ex fucks with my friends Amanda and Kevin, swho are going out, because the ex hooked up with Amanda one time, andsince he isn't getting any pussy, and everyone else around him is happy, he makes life miserable. LOL, this is great. So yesterday, i smoked a ton of pot, and plotted the demis for everyone, that has fucking pissed me off, lol. But i am not gonna do it, because what does that prove? Stuping me down to everyone else's level to be this guy who is a fucking vengeance mongrel? I dunno, lets just say this was the tip of the ice berg with me. I am sick of people waling all over me. My friend melissa said i should ebcome more of an asshole. Please, i cannot even achieve that if it was at all possible. I have a big heart, but in all honesty, it is being broken down one piece at a time with all of this bullshit happening. I am fucking getting physically and mentally ill from just dealing with it. What more can i do? Start a fight with this ex boyfriend? I am going to be 20 years old in October, and i am not looking for a high school drama sitcom. I smoke pot, i practice with my band, i work, and i fuck on occasion. Thats my life. Is it soo wrong? Oh well, maybe it is. I dunno, apparently, gfrom others, a lot ifs wrong with me. Well, maybe they are right. I am just gonna go blaze and go back to sleep. Fuck all of you.