music...
i love how no matter what goes on in my life music is there... cheering me up in my loneliness. well there it is again.. MUSIC.. gotta love it..
well so here it is simply,.. i'm writing here again because i KNOW that noone goes here anymore that i know. lol lame reason but its mine.
So i live in kentucky now... WOW really i thought i \knew the definition of bored but i didnt truely til moving here. NO i KNOW i say that alot. but usually when i move somewhere i atleast know someone,..(other than family), but no here i know NO-ONE else! but hey what do i care right...RIGHT!! well ne-who...
grandma Martha has pancreatic cancer that is the reason that i am here. To help her out, when she'll let me. She wont let me help her but she wants to control every aspect of my life here.
1.) i cant hang out with ANYONE from N.A she doesnt approve of N.A she doesnt think that i need it. That i can do this all by myself, if i could do it all by myself i would but i know i cant i've tried,.. and EVERYONE i know knows how that turns out. either i go nuts and all horny-like, dis you, or become a bitch. and on top of that all i WONT REMEMBER SHIT FROM THAT NIGHT!! so yea i think that i need N.A.. and i'm goin to continue goin to meetings.
2.) i'm only allowed to know people from either church or from work( when i get a job)... lol right!!
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I get lonely here,.. i dont really know anyone and i would love to have someone here that i can go out and see a movie, go shopping or just kick it with here. Well we'll see...
I do have to say that i miss everyone out in Cali!! i do but it is nice to have a change of pace. And the great thiing here is that i dont have to be faced with people all kinds of fucked up on who know what every time i walk out the door! And people here are soo NICE like genuinely nice,.. its refreshing.
well so here it is simply,.. i'm writing here again because i KNOW that noone goes here anymore that i know. lol lame reason but its mine.
So i live in kentucky now... WOW really i thought i \knew the definition of bored but i didnt truely til moving here. NO i KNOW i say that alot. but usually when i move somewhere i atleast know someone,..(other than family), but no here i know NO-ONE else! but hey what do i care right...RIGHT!! well ne-who...
grandma Martha has pancreatic cancer that is the reason that i am here. To help her out, when she'll let me. She wont let me help her but she wants to control every aspect of my life here.
1.) i cant hang out with ANYONE from N.A she doesnt approve of N.A she doesnt think that i need it. That i can do this all by myself, if i could do it all by myself i would but i know i cant i've tried,.. and EVERYONE i know knows how that turns out. either i go nuts and all horny-like, dis you, or become a bitch. and on top of that all i WONT REMEMBER SHIT FROM THAT NIGHT!! so yea i think that i need N.A.. and i'm goin to continue goin to meetings.
2.) i'm only allowed to know people from either church or from work( when i get a job)... lol right!!
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I get lonely here,.. i dont really know anyone and i would love to have someone here that i can go out and see a movie, go shopping or just kick it with here. Well we'll see...
I do have to say that i miss everyone out in Cali!! i do but it is nice to have a change of pace. And the great thiing here is that i dont have to be faced with people all kinds of fucked up on who know what every time i walk out the door! And people here are soo NICE like genuinely nice,.. its refreshing.