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[killmeplease69]

i'm depressed, ...for no appearent reason but i am i get all this bullshit about how i should have all this money from working this summer but its gone and my dads talking about how i should stay here till i'm 21 (at least) to get an associates degree in some field so that i have a degree "under my belt" b 4 i move to cali then he said that he's not gonna let me go to cali alone i have to take a friend then fly them back and all this shit ...when in reality when i turn 18 i'm going to go to several different places b4 i go to Cali, like Owensboro, KY and Popular Bluff , MO and Littleton, CO and then CALI but i have other stops to make like in MO i have to meet my older sister and brother and their family and stuff and in KY i have to smooth things out with my mom's side of the family, in Littleton I have to say hi to my God mom but really i just want to be on my own, to figure things out myself b/c all this O so powerful insight my father has is from making mistakes himself, so why wont he let me make my own mistakes for once.

oh and i couldn't find anyone to switch shifts with so i have to work today when i was supposed to be at a BBQ good-bye thing for my favorite art teacher, she deciede all random like that she was going to be moving to OHIO. so yea she leaves next weekend and im extremely pissed that i have to miss this.

O and by the way i'm changing my last name ...woohoo(sarcasm there) ...it'll now be ...AMBER LEE,...not amber berg. so yea w/e i'm gonna go to work..

yesterday i worked a 10 hr work day go me !! well i'm bored and tearful...
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