memories
my thoughts about people have changed but i have come to the realization that i am emotionally stuck in the past, i'm stuck when i was still in davis and still had people who cared about me,,...don't get me wrong i still talk to some of them but recently i've been trying to let it all go try to become my own person and forget that time when i was happy and just become a drone in indiana. a robot to my parent's want of a perfect child. i know that they'll always be in my heart. I asked a friend the other day if things could ever go back to the way they were?; if things could be normal again? she said, " That actually all depeneds on how much you put into ur new life. It is what u make of it. U make it a new normal but no, it will never be completely the same.." it hurts that my dad says to think of davis as it doesn't exist and forget it, ' it doesn't factor in.." and i wish i could but it hurts to even think of forgetting it,of forgetting the memories...like sarah's random moments of farting..lol or the wrestling thing at kelli's b-day party when Cole dropped me on my head when she didn't think that she could.. . he may easily forget but i'm not him...well g2g .
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