Depressed ..NO what made u think that?
...umm..one of my best friends in lompoc had her baby (don't worry she's like 27) and it's her second child, she named her Newriah Shardea Jones, and what makes me sad about this is that i was supposed to be in the delivery room with her when she had Newriah but i moved to Indiana. I can't wait to graduate so i can go back to Cali, which i am going to do!!! I just don't want to loose my friends. It's just that I have all these great memories with people and when i left it gets harder to remember all of them and then there's no phone calls, and I guess i just feel that i'm being left, but i can't even say that because i was the one who left, and i guess i'm just a lonely bitch and i should shut up.
I found my old book that i used to right in and i was reading through it and i miss all those memories that i wrote about, like how i was soo nervous about Jr.Prom and everyone seeing me in a dress. And those nights when i would try to write when i was on CCC or both CCC and Bacardi. I just wish that i could go back to those times, when everything made sense. LOL i remember when i was giving back rubs at Cescas house and We were writing in Cesca's "shit" book. that was fun...and i still say that playing 10 fingers dare after a game of strip poker was a bad idea!!! VERY BAD IDEA!!! I just want everything to be back to normal when Rachel still lived in Davis and her mom wasn't a total BITCH!!! but only dispised me a little! And when Faan was there and she was my X-mas present.And when i drank soo much Watermelon vodka and then ran to Rie's house and then had to throw up..o god what a nightmare. Or when i first met Cole and Sarah at the Caffine pill thingy and they made the mistake to give me the acctual caffine pill and I got super hyper and i had a horrible craving for Curly fries, and when that same day we went and got curly fries and saw a crazy lady get arrested,....that was interesting. And when kristin was a pornographer(only she, Cesca and I know what that means)!!!:)Soo many good times, I swear when i graduate i'm going to Davis first thing!! I just hope that not everyone has moved or gone away somewhere and hopefully no one has forgotten about me.....
I found my old book that i used to right in and i was reading through it and i miss all those memories that i wrote about, like how i was soo nervous about Jr.Prom and everyone seeing me in a dress. And those nights when i would try to write when i was on CCC or both CCC and Bacardi. I just wish that i could go back to those times, when everything made sense. LOL i remember when i was giving back rubs at Cescas house and We were writing in Cesca's "shit" book. that was fun...and i still say that playing 10 fingers dare after a game of strip poker was a bad idea!!! VERY BAD IDEA!!! I just want everything to be back to normal when Rachel still lived in Davis and her mom wasn't a total BITCH!!! but only dispised me a little! And when Faan was there and she was my X-mas present.And when i drank soo much Watermelon vodka and then ran to Rie's house and then had to throw up..o god what a nightmare. Or when i first met Cole and Sarah at the Caffine pill thingy and they made the mistake to give me the acctual caffine pill and I got super hyper and i had a horrible craving for Curly fries, and when that same day we went and got curly fries and saw a crazy lady get arrested,....that was interesting. And when kristin was a pornographer(only she, Cesca and I know what that means)!!!:)Soo many good times, I swear when i graduate i'm going to Davis first thing!! I just hope that not everyone has moved or gone away somewhere and hopefully no one has forgotten about me.....