Yeah.
So besides Friday, this weekend has been extremely boring. Chyme only had one band practice...which was on Friday...and we're not gonna be able to have another one until i get back from damned Massachusettes. I also won't be seeing Alyssa until i get back from there either. But atleast i can still talk to her on the phone. I find no satisfaction hanging out at the apartment anymore...nor sitting around watching tv or playing video games. it kinda feels like everything is gonna blow up in my face. now i don't know how to explain it and i don't know what i mean by it. Craig wants me to go to the damn apt. tonight. I don't even want to go...but its definatly better than sitting all alone and thinking about everything OVER AND OVER again. Maybe thats what i meant by it... Maybe my head is just going to explode. that'd be fun. i'm sure i wouldn't feel it. and it sure as hell would release the tension buildup.
putting all of that aside, we finished our 4th complete song. so we've got about 20 minutes worth of new music...which is badass. We're taking all of our old shit...adding guitar parts, creating better transitions, and i'm completely rewriting every bit of lyrics. Its a good thing. We have changed for the better. Everyone will see...unless theyre dead. "Which is where i wanna be. Pussy."
oh...and another thing: i broke down and bought a pack of cigarettes which i haven't done in forever. It felt like shit to do...and i know i've let some people down...only one is important though. Which is why i vow to not buy another pack and not let myself get sucked back into the habit.
putting all of that aside, we finished our 4th complete song. so we've got about 20 minutes worth of new music...which is badass. We're taking all of our old shit...adding guitar parts, creating better transitions, and i'm completely rewriting every bit of lyrics. Its a good thing. We have changed for the better. Everyone will see...unless theyre dead. "Which is where i wanna be. Pussy."
oh...and another thing: i broke down and bought a pack of cigarettes which i haven't done in forever. It felt like shit to do...and i know i've let some people down...only one is important though. Which is why i vow to not buy another pack and not let myself get sucked back into the habit.