Saturday afternoon.
Well last night i hung out with Alyssa so she could get the new Harry Potter book. She seems so happy to have gotten it. And i'd loved to have hung out with her more last night, but oh well...i figured i'd hang out with her this afternoon.
Went to the apartment around 12ish after the whold book deal was done. When i got there i was tired, and in need of something more than everything. Liz gave me a beer, and another, and another. Haha. But i wasn't complaining. Samantha, Craig's ex, called me. That was a big surprise. I looked at my phone and was like "who the fuck...?" Then answered and noticed her voice right away. She seems to be doing good. And she was just asking how things were. And me being drunk, i unfolded my feelings once again. I guess no one really understands my heart and my intentions. She didn't say anything negative though. It was awesome talking to her again too. Shes a nice girl. But for those that do say negative things to me about my life and how things are going, you can serious FUCK OFF AND DIE. I don't give a shit about that. I don't want to hear it. I just want to believe that things can be beautiful again. Because some things will never change, yet some things can change forever. Thats my bullshit of the day.
THEN Mooch takes me to his car. I thought he was gonna ask me to smoke some reefer with him, and i said "if thats what we're here for i'm going. because i don't want to smoke." He said "nope." Then he put a kolonopin in my hand. Ate that...and after a while it started. It was fun, but if i knew i would have slept until almost three, i never would've done all i did. Because i really really wanted to hang out with Alyssa this afternoon...and i feel like complete ass b/c she called and called, but i was so out i didn't even know. It really pisses me off at myself. Thats the jist of things i suppose. Today will be miserable, once again because I fucked up.
Went to the apartment around 12ish after the whold book deal was done. When i got there i was tired, and in need of something more than everything. Liz gave me a beer, and another, and another. Haha. But i wasn't complaining. Samantha, Craig's ex, called me. That was a big surprise. I looked at my phone and was like "who the fuck...?" Then answered and noticed her voice right away. She seems to be doing good. And she was just asking how things were. And me being drunk, i unfolded my feelings once again. I guess no one really understands my heart and my intentions. She didn't say anything negative though. It was awesome talking to her again too. Shes a nice girl. But for those that do say negative things to me about my life and how things are going, you can serious FUCK OFF AND DIE. I don't give a shit about that. I don't want to hear it. I just want to believe that things can be beautiful again. Because some things will never change, yet some things can change forever. Thats my bullshit of the day.
THEN Mooch takes me to his car. I thought he was gonna ask me to smoke some reefer with him, and i said "if thats what we're here for i'm going. because i don't want to smoke." He said "nope." Then he put a kolonopin in my hand. Ate that...and after a while it started. It was fun, but if i knew i would have slept until almost three, i never would've done all i did. Because i really really wanted to hang out with Alyssa this afternoon...and i feel like complete ass b/c she called and called, but i was so out i didn't even know. It really pisses me off at myself. Thats the jist of things i suppose. Today will be miserable, once again because I fucked up.