another heart filled reaction to dissatisfaction

[killme_loveme]

i am: tired of being emotionally drained

i am: tired of crying

i am: tired of feeling like i'm going to throw up any second

i am: tired of feeling responsible for someone else's feelings

i am: tired of feeling like i just murdered someone

i am: tired of all of this bullshit that i've felt for the past couple of days

i wish: that i had never hurt you

i wish: that you had never even given me the time of day

i wish: i knew why this even hurt you so bad

i wish: i knew why this hurt me so bad

i wish: we could just be friends

i wish: i could stop feeling like the worst person in the world

i loved the day we spent together and the times we talked on the phone. i miss looking foreward to 9:00. i miss "oh my god" and "you're crazy". i still love the wookie joke. and mint chapstick is my favorite.

i meant every word i said to you. and i will not take them back.

<3