wow
i can not even explain in words how drastic my life has changed just over the past two years. i mean i dont even feel like same person. but i still act like a kid. and i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me. and if i could i would change it all but i cant. i always wonder why i have been dealt the immense amount of suffering. or maybe im just a baby. but i mean i just feel like complete shit and i thought that i had the answers. but i obviously dont. i know i have done some fucked up shit in the past, but fuck dude. i dont feel like i am ever going to get any better. just fucking kill me.