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[killkelleyy]

"my ass is damp from sitting on a wet bench. i don't even bother to get up. it seems like all i want to do is sleep. all i want to do is sleep, and curse, and drink, and just do a whole bunch of absolutley nothing. all i want to do is sit in my bedrooom with freshly painted walls, and sit on my bed, and pet my cat, and chainsmoke my camel wides. i want to think about all the things i could be doing, all the fun i could be having. because lately, i'm not much of a do-er. i'm more of sit-on-a-soaked-bench-and-not-even-care-to-get-up kind of person. i've become an apathetic asshole, coasting through my pathetic existance in the passenger seat, gazing out the wndow, or just a driver gliding the streets on cruise control -sleeping at the wheel. i've become a twat safari, hungry for beer, and thirsty for books. feed me. craving the constant sitting on my ass. give me motivation, give me fucking air to breathe.

i feel like i'm suffocating in these baby vomit colored walls. put me back in my room, i don't feel like dealing with the real world. it's putrid, i know because it's filled with douche bags like you, flipping through this book, searching for pretty pictures. well, you'll find none.

if you put me in your dull real world, i'll be lurking your streets. i'll be kidnapping your grandmothers pearls, and borrowing a strangers wallet forever. i'll be bribing baby diamonds and rubies to nap in my pockets...

-i felt inspired for about two minutes before it died.
what a pitty.