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[killjoy__]

i sense myself retreating back into what i made out to be hell a few months back.
everythings messed.
the system, the soul.

i haven't talked to rach in the longest time,
ugh.

and you,
you know who you are.

i know things arent fine between us yet, it's obvious but only you and me know that.
i know you are struggling and sometimes i feel like calling you up to tell you that she isnt worth all your tears and shit, that you dont have to spend your nights wondering why you fucked up and why she isnt yours.
i guess i have a more major part to blame on why this happened, i shouldnt have even partially avoided you when i needed a break from the people closest to me.

but that has become a thing of the past.

just to let you know, i am still here, that is, if you need a listening ear.