&&&guess who it is.
iron and wine on repeat.
today was a good day.
went to the mall.
bought justin some gyros.
yikes.
wanted to see hustle & flow, but we
were a bit late.
so we watched bad news bears instead.
got popcorn.
and a coke.
typing like this is really gay.
i'm glad none of my friends do this.
haha.
justin took a pretty cool picture today.
i love him, a lot.
i'm sooooo happy about how my life is going now.
it's refreshing not having to worry about things.
or people not liking people.
or people talking behind your back.
or just.. people.
i like not having to worry.
& just go on about my day, with someone i truely care about.
and we're getting married (!!)
& i'll even invite my enemies.
thats just how happy i am.
even when we argue.
or when i get upset he won't turn the history channel.
or when i drop a piece of cake on his head at 3am. (don't ask.)
or when he dropped tony (aka "esssaay!") on his head, when he was a baby.
on the concrete.
outside on the steps.
& i cried. because ESSAY was wobling around.
i just realised, squirting people with water guns,
is the equivelant of pantsing people in public.
get our fun now? i hope so.
i'm pretty crazy, and retarded.
& i like to do stupid things.
i get excitment out of eves dropping& lurking.
especially to those i dislike.
aholebunch.
i don't miss my past, and i certainly don't regret it.
i just thought i'd throw that in here.
i want to stress that.
it sounds unbelievable and kind of queer.
but i honestly, regret..nothing.
i am honestly happy with my choices,
the things i've done.
past, present..etc
i'm a pretty good person if you are.
we both know if you are or not.
i'm not here to impress you,
or hurt you.
& i'm sorry if i've misread you, and treated you like
garbage. hopefully it was my humor getting the best of me..
or at least you being a jerk & deserving it.
just know that, i don't assume, and i certainly don't judge.
i just can tell, on first impressions.
if you're worth a damn.
like we all can.
i'm looking for a best friend.
i think i have one in mind.
& contrary to popular belief,
she is one of the most down to earth
catz in town. and if not, oh well.
life is too short to wash my hands of yet, another best friend.
people confuse you, and sometimes you are blinded.
and no matter how good of a person they are, or how fun, funny, pretty, etc, they might be.
they might not be a perfect match for you.
time makes us get comfy. maybe too comfy.
and you need a certain explosion to wake yourself up.
and realise people do grow apart, & find themselves..alone.
no matter how many tears it will cause, or how many friends
you might lose. it's probably the best feeling in the world.
to liberate yourself.
it took years of building up tension, to get somewhere.
i don't express myself as much as i need to
& i just allow it to grow.
that's why i'm such a bitch.
i hold too many things in,
that i let silly things slip out.
i'm 19, & i see a really amazing future ahead.
however long it might take me to get where i want to be,
i don't care.
i'm in no rush to mature. or grow up.
& i'd hope you aren't either.
i just thought i'd mention the above, because
some people are getting confused. & words are getting changed around.
and i thought i'd let you know it from me.
not anyone else.
i don't think i'm better than anyone, or whatever you might assume.
i just can't get close.
i never, ever, forgive.
i have so many grudges i lost count.
i can't stand, can't STAND, to let anyone get the best of me.
i laugh harder than i cry, mark my words.
that doesn't make me cold hearted, as you'd like to say.
it makes me choose an alternate rout to deal with my feelings.
you gotta have variety.
choices.
as most of you might know, i havent had much of a childhood, which
is one of the reasons i'm so obnoxious, & loud, and crack jokes 24/7. etc.
i don't want to grow up, & i have no plans on doing it.
my point is.
we grew apart because of that reason.
i'm in no rush to go anywhere.
& you were.
& you know? that's okay with me.
maybe one day we will cross eachothers paths.
just not right now.
unlike you, i can't force myself to do anything,
because "i'm losing time".
i'm wasting time typing this out, but i don't care.
it's okay to let time slip by, it only creates new memories.
to learn on.
i wish you the best in life, but i don't regret anything i've done.
yeah, some of the things i did was pretty childish. but one day you'll
realise what you did. and everything will fall into place.
& if you haven't already, you'll understand one day, why i am the way i am, and why i did the things i did.
i'm getting off topic.. so yeah.
haha.
we are on a diet.
but i like birthday cake.
this diet consists of the following:
tuna, 3 oz chicken, grapefruits, .5 banana, 2.5 apple, 1 slice cheddar cheese, slice toast, 5 crackers, green tea. etc. = yucks.
it better work.
shit's retarded.
i'm not really that concerned.
i'm in love, he's in love. and we just happen to be in love with eachother.
awesome.
i'm just a faggoty burst of fags.
get over it.
& quit yer hatin'.
love,
ginger.
ps.
remember the other sister? haha
one more time if you didnt see it.
goodnight, yall.
today was a good day.
went to the mall.
bought justin some gyros.
yikes.
wanted to see hustle & flow, but we
were a bit late.
so we watched bad news bears instead.
got popcorn.
and a coke.
typing like this is really gay.
i'm glad none of my friends do this.
haha.
justin took a pretty cool picture today.
i love him, a lot.
i'm sooooo happy about how my life is going now.
it's refreshing not having to worry about things.
or people not liking people.
or people talking behind your back.
or just.. people.
i like not having to worry.
& just go on about my day, with someone i truely care about.
and we're getting married (!!)
& i'll even invite my enemies.
thats just how happy i am.
even when we argue.
or when i get upset he won't turn the history channel.
or when i drop a piece of cake on his head at 3am. (don't ask.)
or when he dropped tony (aka "esssaay!") on his head, when he was a baby.
on the concrete.
outside on the steps.
& i cried. because ESSAY was wobling around.
i just realised, squirting people with water guns,
is the equivelant of pantsing people in public.
get our fun now? i hope so.
i'm pretty crazy, and retarded.
& i like to do stupid things.
i get excitment out of eves dropping& lurking.
especially to those i dislike.
aholebunch.
i don't miss my past, and i certainly don't regret it.
i just thought i'd throw that in here.
i want to stress that.
it sounds unbelievable and kind of queer.
but i honestly, regret..nothing.
i am honestly happy with my choices,
the things i've done.
past, present..etc
i'm a pretty good person if you are.
we both know if you are or not.
i'm not here to impress you,
or hurt you.
& i'm sorry if i've misread you, and treated you like
garbage. hopefully it was my humor getting the best of me..
or at least you being a jerk & deserving it.
just know that, i don't assume, and i certainly don't judge.
i just can tell, on first impressions.
if you're worth a damn.
like we all can.
i'm looking for a best friend.
i think i have one in mind.
& contrary to popular belief,
she is one of the most down to earth
catz in town. and if not, oh well.
life is too short to wash my hands of yet, another best friend.
people confuse you, and sometimes you are blinded.
and no matter how good of a person they are, or how fun, funny, pretty, etc, they might be.
they might not be a perfect match for you.
time makes us get comfy. maybe too comfy.
and you need a certain explosion to wake yourself up.
and realise people do grow apart, & find themselves..alone.
no matter how many tears it will cause, or how many friends
you might lose. it's probably the best feeling in the world.
to liberate yourself.
it took years of building up tension, to get somewhere.
i don't express myself as much as i need to
& i just allow it to grow.
that's why i'm such a bitch.
i hold too many things in,
that i let silly things slip out.
i'm 19, & i see a really amazing future ahead.
however long it might take me to get where i want to be,
i don't care.
i'm in no rush to mature. or grow up.
& i'd hope you aren't either.
i just thought i'd mention the above, because
some people are getting confused. & words are getting changed around.
and i thought i'd let you know it from me.
not anyone else.
i don't think i'm better than anyone, or whatever you might assume.
i just can't get close.
i never, ever, forgive.
i have so many grudges i lost count.
i can't stand, can't STAND, to let anyone get the best of me.
i laugh harder than i cry, mark my words.
that doesn't make me cold hearted, as you'd like to say.
it makes me choose an alternate rout to deal with my feelings.
you gotta have variety.
choices.
as most of you might know, i havent had much of a childhood, which
is one of the reasons i'm so obnoxious, & loud, and crack jokes 24/7. etc.
i don't want to grow up, & i have no plans on doing it.
my point is.
we grew apart because of that reason.
i'm in no rush to go anywhere.
& you were.
& you know? that's okay with me.
maybe one day we will cross eachothers paths.
just not right now.
unlike you, i can't force myself to do anything,
because "i'm losing time".
i'm wasting time typing this out, but i don't care.
it's okay to let time slip by, it only creates new memories.
to learn on.
i wish you the best in life, but i don't regret anything i've done.
yeah, some of the things i did was pretty childish. but one day you'll
realise what you did. and everything will fall into place.
& if you haven't already, you'll understand one day, why i am the way i am, and why i did the things i did.
i'm getting off topic.. so yeah.
haha.
we are on a diet.
but i like birthday cake.
this diet consists of the following:
tuna, 3 oz chicken, grapefruits, .5 banana, 2.5 apple, 1 slice cheddar cheese, slice toast, 5 crackers, green tea. etc. = yucks.
it better work.
shit's retarded.
i'm not really that concerned.
i'm in love, he's in love. and we just happen to be in love with eachother.
awesome.
i'm just a faggoty burst of fags.
get over it.
& quit yer hatin'.
love,
ginger.
ps.
remember the other sister? haha
one more time if you didnt see it.
goodnight, yall.