My horror movie type night.
Think deeply.
Watching a movie with three kids of the ages of 6,6,and 10. You know them very whell and know every little detail. You grow to care for them. Like they were family you actually liked.
Get a phone call at 12 in the morning saying lock up the doors and windows, and don't let a man in the house.
1st floor is almost pitch black, the moon was half full so light apeard and casted shadows if the light was ever interfeared with.
Turnd off the last light. Kids still watching the movie on the 2nd floor. You left the door closed so no light could shine through justincase they looked through the glass.
You are used to being invisible and a crawler in the dark. So being in pitch black just makes it appear to be as sunny during the day, even if it is night.
You wait inbetween two places where someone can come in. Garage door opens and closes.
Door bell rings.
A man that can lift 2 times his own body weight at the door, and drunk.
A woman coming in smiling saying everything is ok. You are still staiond where you planted your feet and your arms crossed, giving people a sign to not toy with you.
Conversation is being created with the man and woman who walked through the grage entrance. Then man comes in and says "You are ok." and you take that as a sign to be alert, afraid, and drivin on the safty of the ones you watch and protect.
Then he leaves.
Well it doesn't sound to bad right? Well, it wasn't to bad but... the memories it brought to my head i haven't thought of in so fucking long is what scared me.
Indeed all this happend. Indeed i have great sight in the night. Indeed i become a hunter even if I am the prey.
These were odd times for me. Clueless on what was going on but perfectly knowing at the same time.
Friends didn't help during that time. Don't know why I think i need my friends for survival. I don't need Anger, or anything like that as my strength and energy.
I just need me and my own well being to get through anything i come across.
I just hope others can do that same thing.
i regret everything. I hate everything. I can't stand to look and anything. Oh well. As i usually say:
It happends.
Rebal.
Watching a movie with three kids of the ages of 6,6,and 10. You know them very whell and know every little detail. You grow to care for them. Like they were family you actually liked.
Get a phone call at 12 in the morning saying lock up the doors and windows, and don't let a man in the house.
1st floor is almost pitch black, the moon was half full so light apeard and casted shadows if the light was ever interfeared with.
Turnd off the last light. Kids still watching the movie on the 2nd floor. You left the door closed so no light could shine through justincase they looked through the glass.
You are used to being invisible and a crawler in the dark. So being in pitch black just makes it appear to be as sunny during the day, even if it is night.
You wait inbetween two places where someone can come in. Garage door opens and closes.
Door bell rings.
A man that can lift 2 times his own body weight at the door, and drunk.
A woman coming in smiling saying everything is ok. You are still staiond where you planted your feet and your arms crossed, giving people a sign to not toy with you.
Conversation is being created with the man and woman who walked through the grage entrance. Then man comes in and says "You are ok." and you take that as a sign to be alert, afraid, and drivin on the safty of the ones you watch and protect.
Then he leaves.
Well it doesn't sound to bad right? Well, it wasn't to bad but... the memories it brought to my head i haven't thought of in so fucking long is what scared me.
Indeed all this happend. Indeed i have great sight in the night. Indeed i become a hunter even if I am the prey.
These were odd times for me. Clueless on what was going on but perfectly knowing at the same time.
Friends didn't help during that time. Don't know why I think i need my friends for survival. I don't need Anger, or anything like that as my strength and energy.
I just need me and my own well being to get through anything i come across.
I just hope others can do that same thing.
i regret everything. I hate everything. I can't stand to look and anything. Oh well. As i usually say:
It happends.
Rebal.