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Beat poets,
you have changed every fibre of my being.
i live for Monday evenings, 3 hours with the most amazing literature of our century. 3 hours looking at Ginsberg= the most amazing hours of recent memory.
however, it raises ideas in my mind that keep me awake till 6am every night. i want so desperately to change my life, to live the kind of existence of Allen Ginsberg, and Jack Kerouac, to savour life and live every day to its fullest, to think revolutionary non-conforming thoughts and to be the kind of free bird i want to be. and yet, should i do these things, i wonder about my identity...would it be ME doing these things, or me following in others footsteps because i cannot create my own existence? i like to think that it would be ME coming to an epiphany and forging the kind of life I want to lead, not the kind of life that is ordinary, dull and routine. i want to see the world, to feel part of the world, to use my words to live, to capture images of what i see, and at the same time seek to look beyond the chaos and destruction we are faced with every day.
i'm glad i'm going through university, i feel like i've learned an incredible amount in just 6 months...like i've become a whole new person. i like it.