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so apparently my life is patterned in a continuous and vicious cycle. the a button on my keyboard likes to stop working.
i guess i truly am destined to die alone. why does this shit always happen to me? i am aware that the events of St. Patty's Day mean nothing in the grand scheme of things, but really what happened yesterday is merely confirmation of what i already knew.
i don't have friends. i have NEVER had friends. not in elementary school, not when i changed elementary schools, and not in high school. i am incapable of maintaining friendships.
what sort of friends would all plan to attend a party that i was not supposed to go to? just because i'm a "random" according to the host guy...so are half the people that are going! and not ONE person stops to ask that guy "hey, could i bring my friend?" no one asks that question. all i get is "sorry". you're not sorry you fucktards. you'll be sorry when you're dead. wait-not even then.
it just angers me that these people expect things from me and want favours and want their names on papers i wrote all by myself. these are not friends. these are people who don't need me don't want me and so i shall grant their wish. i am a phantom. i need no one and i will get through this life on my own. i have all i need and its time to carry on.