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[killherkill]

ive started my countdown.

im sick of that place.

30 more days. and im done. with a smile on my face and a tear and hope for the worthy.

im tired of assholes.

im tired of trashy bitches trying to bring me down.

im tired of worthless drama.

im tired of stupid fake bitches talking shit on people who i consider decent.

im tired of previously mentioned groups seekign sympathy through tears, claiming sanctuary in "a misunderstanding" and then seeing more shit slung out of their mouth at the same party, when they think no one is going to see.

im tired of missing britty.
im tired of feeling like a downer for being depressed all the time.
im tired of playing happy.
im tired of feeling like shit for things i cant change.

i want a new place.
i want new people in my life.

i want my fucking friend alive. now.
im tired of that feeling i get everyday when i think about her. and all the time i wasted on people who dont matter, instead of being with her.
im tired of being jealous of the people who got to spend more time with her.

im tired of feeling like i cant function for myself.
like i have to be nice. like i have to be caring. likei ahve to understand.
I DONT. I DONT. I DONT. I DONT.

im tired of being terrified for the future.

im tired of worrying if people think im a joke. that my dreams are a joke.
im tired of being paranoid about my friends.
im tired of feeling like all i ever do is dissapoint and bother.

im tired of the fact that i have no one to talk to. about any of this.

i just want everything like it used to be.

there i said it. happy?