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my life in the past 48 hours:
made a resolution to be less critical.
made a resolution to love myself more.
then
my mother tells me she wishes she had never had me, that her life would be better without me in it.
and, my aunt dies.
it seems just when i start to want to live again, i kicked down again.
id tell you more, but then id be judged. judged for my bad habits, my bad hanling of situations.
but thats all this shit is for right?
judgment and sympathy.
sign the fuck off and go outside. speaking for myself as well.
i dont even see the point in this shit anymore.
all life is is one stupid fuckign trial.
i love it. not.
and of coruse everyone i ever had to talk to about this shit, ive pushed out of my life.
its wonderful being this lonely.
made a resolution to be less critical.
made a resolution to love myself more.
then
my mother tells me she wishes she had never had me, that her life would be better without me in it.
and, my aunt dies.
it seems just when i start to want to live again, i kicked down again.
id tell you more, but then id be judged. judged for my bad habits, my bad hanling of situations.
but thats all this shit is for right?
judgment and sympathy.
sign the fuck off and go outside. speaking for myself as well.
i dont even see the point in this shit anymore.
all life is is one stupid fuckign trial.
i love it. not.
and of coruse everyone i ever had to talk to about this shit, ive pushed out of my life.
its wonderful being this lonely.