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we broke up...ish last night. i've been in a funk since saturday (which i will elaborate on and then you can call me a whore) and matt noticed it on monday. he called me when i got home from class last night and we talked for three and a half hours. basically he decided because i wasn't ready to make a decision. he said we always come back to the same crossroads every 6 or so months, that i need to worry about myself and do something so i don't regret it later. he is right. i have been waiting for him to get his shit together so i can move on with my life, which isn't how i should live. i think he stripped it down to this is a relationship, loosely, without a title. in my mind, this is a friendship with tiny benefits. it hurts, but i think i'm going to be okay for a while.
friday night i went to isaac's apartment. andrew wanted me to come out with them, so i went over there to drink. and i got hammered before we even made it to the bars. and at the bars i ordered water. on the way to the bars though, andrew grabbed my hand and said he still liked me and then we drunk talked about last spring when he pretty much told me he had no respect for me because i had two abortions and how now he says he's grown more accepting and whatnot. at the end of the night we ended up kissing and we slept on isaac's floor in front of the fireplace. i got up at 630am to go home, shower, and go on a field trip. and i've been mulling over that since then.
i started a garden in my room and a good chunk of seeds have sprouted except for almost all of them in my paper containers. i'm a little annoyed about that.
the paper i stayed up until 5am writing was an A- paper. i was happy to see that.
i bashed my knee on a step yesterday so it's all black and blue and hurts. i was limping yesterday. hopefully today will be better.
i'm making some real progress on paying off my credit cards. i will be a happy girl when they are completely paid off and i can cancel them.
i paid $20 to get access to WWOOF farms. i'm toying around with the idea of spending all summer working on farms in northwestern wisconsin, from eau claire up to bayfield. i hope it's possible.
friday night i went to isaac's apartment. andrew wanted me to come out with them, so i went over there to drink. and i got hammered before we even made it to the bars. and at the bars i ordered water. on the way to the bars though, andrew grabbed my hand and said he still liked me and then we drunk talked about last spring when he pretty much told me he had no respect for me because i had two abortions and how now he says he's grown more accepting and whatnot. at the end of the night we ended up kissing and we slept on isaac's floor in front of the fireplace. i got up at 630am to go home, shower, and go on a field trip. and i've been mulling over that since then.
i started a garden in my room and a good chunk of seeds have sprouted except for almost all of them in my paper containers. i'm a little annoyed about that.
the paper i stayed up until 5am writing was an A- paper. i was happy to see that.
i bashed my knee on a step yesterday so it's all black and blue and hurts. i was limping yesterday. hopefully today will be better.
i'm making some real progress on paying off my credit cards. i will be a happy girl when they are completely paid off and i can cancel them.
i paid $20 to get access to WWOOF farms. i'm toying around with the idea of spending all summer working on farms in northwestern wisconsin, from eau claire up to bayfield. i hope it's possible.