Ohi. I cried.
Yes, I did.
I can't focus on work today because it worries me that my dad's in the hospital.
Because he's been lying in bed these past week. Yup, no energy whatsoever. At the moment, they're waiting for the doctor.
I don't know how much I can take this anymore. I've been facing this with a brave face--but a little while ago, I couldn't pretend anymore. Reality is setting in. This is real. My dad's really weak now. He's giving up and I'm desperate. =(
He needs to stay alive for us. He wasn't even present for most of my birthdays! And now he's giving up on us--he won't be able to walk me down the aisle on my wedding day, see my future children and spoil them!!!
I don't know...
Anger, sadness and desperation are all mixed up inside me due to this. I don't know how to react. I've been keeping myself from crying and I dont' know how long I'll be able to keep this up.
This is real. :(
What sad is that, my dad doesn't think of staying alive for us anymore. :(
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I can't focus on work today because it worries me that my dad's in the hospital.
Because he's been lying in bed these past week. Yup, no energy whatsoever. At the moment, they're waiting for the doctor.
I don't know how much I can take this anymore. I've been facing this with a brave face--but a little while ago, I couldn't pretend anymore. Reality is setting in. This is real. My dad's really weak now. He's giving up and I'm desperate. =(
He needs to stay alive for us. He wasn't even present for most of my birthdays! And now he's giving up on us--he won't be able to walk me down the aisle on my wedding day, see my future children and spoil them!!!
I don't know...
Anger, sadness and desperation are all mixed up inside me due to this. I don't know how to react. I've been keeping myself from crying and I dont' know how long I'll be able to keep this up.
This is real. :(
What sad is that, my dad doesn't think of staying alive for us anymore. :(
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