EATING STRESS and DEPRESS-ion.
Finally, another livejournal entry after two months... It was two months.. I think..
Well, anyway, the first term of this school year has just ended a week ago, and now is the start of yet another stressful term... Talk about having term break--more like having a 6-day vacation--which is also useless as I'm heading the sing-out entry of our cluster in Youth For Christ. Although I have a partner, Junius, it feels as though I'm the only one fixing our schedule for the practices and gathering the sing-out members--I have to fetch them from their home, ask their parents for permission to let them practice and I have to pay all our fare in going to the venue. Right now, I'm at home relaxing, hoping to get some sleep for my WRIFILM tomorrow morning.
This entry is not about what I've gone through this past week.. This is about me, getting fat.
Yes, you heard--cross that out-- you read it right. About me, getting fat.
For those people who've known me ever since grade school and high school, and now are wondering what happened to me? Have I been left out in the kitchen ever since college started?
I will answer all of your queries in a bit.
As soon as I finish playing this online game.. hehe Ü
okay...
I'm done!
So, people have been asking me how, why did I get fat.
One answer. STRESS and DEPRESSion. Those two are so much connected with food. I know I'm not like this overweight in highschool. Heck! My body was fine..so fine! haha.. That is, until I entered college.
You know how when you're super tired and you go home and you don't have time to rest? You sit infront of the television with a loaf of Pan Americana and peanut butter on the table, eating while watching. Well, that was sort of "relaxing" to me. And a lot of my highschool friends already know that I've reached this weight once in highschool--after learning of the then-sad traumatic event that happened during the later months of third year. Yes, I was this fat once in highschool, but after 2 weeks or so... I've returned to my normal weight and body size--which was soo fine. hahahahaha
Okay, so now u know that I turn to food for comfort. Well, that event that happened in highschool, made me so depressed that I decided to spend my vacation with my family in Cebu--away from the judging eyes of highschool peers. Imagine now, how depressed I was back then, and how much food I intake (or intook?) during those 2 months--and every other day was LECHON de CEBU... Yes, I was happy with that. or so I thought, until I looked at my body in the mirror, and checked my weight on a bathroom scale. DEPRESSION, was the reason. No means of communication--just T.V. and some left over lechon from last night..
And so DEPRESSION leads to comfort food...
Every college student knows how stressing college life can be. I mean just with the deadlines--minor subjects and major subjects, who has time to unwind and relax. Being a Communication Arts student, my assignments most of the time is to watch tv shows, listen to radio programs, watch films and just observe. Observe, observe, and observe. And what goes with that? Of course, you can't watch a film without eating... may it be popcorn or chips or biscuits or chocolates or candies or... the list could go on and on...
I have no time in relaxing and unwinding... My assignments are the only time I can unwind--yes, how fortunate of me...right? No... since due to this watching and eating routine I have, I now transformed into "BIG BERTHE"...
That's my excuse... Besides, aside from watching TV and films, I spent most of my time infront of the PC to surf and do some research or type my reflection papers and term papers...
No time for work-out.
No time for diet.
But I am trying hard to lose weight.
But because I'm not used to all that working out thing anymore, my metabolism is "SLOWER" than usual.