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So, I have this friend, Jake. We went to high school together and he was sorta friends with Brian (that would be my high school boyfriend for those of you who aren't aware). We knew each other in high school and, like, sat at the same table at lunch and such, but we didn't really become friends till we went off to college. I don't remember exactly how we got started talking to each other online, but he's been the person I talk to most often online for the last ~5 years. Freshman year, he and I had an all-night-long conversation during which we confessed to each other that we had a mutual attraction thing going on. This was when I was still trying to be monogamous with Brian, so I told him, "You know, if we're ever alone together, we'll have to be really careful." And he said, "I don't think I would be." Which kinda...shook me. A little lightening-bolt-of-pleasure-from-my-heart-to-my-stomach kinda feeling.
So, then, like a month later, Brian and I opened our relationship. I was still in NY and Jake was in CO, so we couldn't do anything about it anyway, but he also shut up about the attraction thing. He reads this, so I'm gonna be careful about making assumptions. My hypotheses are 1) he and Brian have known each other for a long time, so even though our relationship was now open, Jake still felt weird about it, 2) he's a virgin and now that it was more likely that I'd deflower him, it was also scarier. Besides that, in our fledgling set of rules for how our open relationship was gonna work, Brian vetoed several people off the bat including Jake. He and I continued to chat online whenever we were both signed on (which is usually often).
By the time Brian and I broke up (10 months later), Jake and I had gone back to not talking about whether or not we were into each other. We talk about sex all the time. As you may have noticed, I'm very open about my sex life in general, and even more so with good friends. I think he was doing a little bit of living vicariously through me (still a virgin). Let me state here that it's not like Jake knows nothing about sex. He hasn't had hands-on experience, but he's not one of those sheltered children who's never seen porn. Far from it. Anyway, we talk a lot about what's going on in my life as his life is fairly...boring (I'm sure he won't take offense at me saying that).
When I moved back to Colorado two years ago, we only saw each other a couple times. He was up in Greeley and I was going crazy (i.e. hypomanic). Then he moved to Florida to be closer to his parents that May. He's visited once since then. I wanted to seduce him while he was here, but he didn't give me much opportunity. Here's the irony of being Jessie: I'm slutty, but shy about it. I tend to assume that people aren't interested in me unless they tell me. Even though he'd told me years ago, I had convinced myself that he'd lost interest for whatever reason. We're both shy.
A week or so ago, he mentioned that he's coming to Colorado for some family business at the beginning of March. He mentioned that he doesn't actually have a place to stay while he's here, except with a mildly annoying acquaintance of ours from high school. I told him I'd ask my dad if it was okay if he slept on the couch in our basement that weekend.
This past Thursday, he IMed me after having been out to a bar with his friend. He doesn't get drunk very often, but this was one of the times he did. We started talking about what he wants to do while he's here. "The more vices the better!" He's never been high, he doesn't get drunk very often, and he's still a virgin. He's also never sung karaoke in public. I told him that I can get him high and drunk (not at the same time...bad idea), and singing and potentially get him laid. Here's a chunk of the conversation:
(23:54:52) PuZep2: can you really get me laid? I haven't been able to decide if you were joking or not
(23:55:47) Jessie: i dunno if i can get you laid
(23:55:56) Jessie: that stuff kinda depends on the chemistry between the people doing it
(23:56:05) Jessie: and i don't have many single female friends
(23:56:16) Jessie: but we can go to bars
(23:56:24) Jake: good enough for me
(23:56:42) Jessie: and I can always deflower you if it comes down to it ;)
(23:56:52) Jake: also good
(23:57:29) Jessie: oh rly?
(23:58:14) Jake: you realize my only excuse evaporated when you broke up with mckee [also known as Brian], yea?
(23:58:37) Jessie: well...I tend to assume that people aren't actually into me
(23:59:03) Jake: I can't believe you still do that
(23:59:14) Jake: also, I asked for nude pics, that's gotta count for somethin
(23:59:27) Jessie: good point
(23:59:55) Jessie: then again, i think there are boys who would ask for nude pics and not actually be interested
(00:00:20) Jake: I asked for them because i think they, and you, are really sexy
(00:01:49) Jessie: :-D
(00:02:09) Jake: have I stoked your ego enough for one night, or would you like more? :)
(00:02:32) Jessie: more please
etc...
Then he continued to tell me that he thinks I'm sexy and mentioned that one of my naughty photos had been the desktop on his computer for a while. And we kept talking for three more hours. Not quite all night, as I had class in the morning, but pretty late for a night after which I had class in the morning. It was interesting, 'cause a bunch of it was just like the conversations we normally have, but with some dirty talk thrown in. And, apparently, an orgasm for him at the end. :-D
So, yay! He's gonna be here March 6-10, and Dad has approved the plan of him sleeping on our basement couch. Which is about 30 feet from my bed.
(00:11:32) Jessie: well, so, i can pretty much guarantee that you'll get laid while you're in colorado
So, then, like a month later, Brian and I opened our relationship. I was still in NY and Jake was in CO, so we couldn't do anything about it anyway, but he also shut up about the attraction thing. He reads this, so I'm gonna be careful about making assumptions. My hypotheses are 1) he and Brian have known each other for a long time, so even though our relationship was now open, Jake still felt weird about it, 2) he's a virgin and now that it was more likely that I'd deflower him, it was also scarier. Besides that, in our fledgling set of rules for how our open relationship was gonna work, Brian vetoed several people off the bat including Jake. He and I continued to chat online whenever we were both signed on (which is usually often).
By the time Brian and I broke up (10 months later), Jake and I had gone back to not talking about whether or not we were into each other. We talk about sex all the time. As you may have noticed, I'm very open about my sex life in general, and even more so with good friends. I think he was doing a little bit of living vicariously through me (still a virgin). Let me state here that it's not like Jake knows nothing about sex. He hasn't had hands-on experience, but he's not one of those sheltered children who's never seen porn. Far from it. Anyway, we talk a lot about what's going on in my life as his life is fairly...boring (I'm sure he won't take offense at me saying that).
When I moved back to Colorado two years ago, we only saw each other a couple times. He was up in Greeley and I was going crazy (i.e. hypomanic). Then he moved to Florida to be closer to his parents that May. He's visited once since then. I wanted to seduce him while he was here, but he didn't give me much opportunity. Here's the irony of being Jessie: I'm slutty, but shy about it. I tend to assume that people aren't interested in me unless they tell me. Even though he'd told me years ago, I had convinced myself that he'd lost interest for whatever reason. We're both shy.
A week or so ago, he mentioned that he's coming to Colorado for some family business at the beginning of March. He mentioned that he doesn't actually have a place to stay while he's here, except with a mildly annoying acquaintance of ours from high school. I told him I'd ask my dad if it was okay if he slept on the couch in our basement that weekend.
This past Thursday, he IMed me after having been out to a bar with his friend. He doesn't get drunk very often, but this was one of the times he did. We started talking about what he wants to do while he's here. "The more vices the better!" He's never been high, he doesn't get drunk very often, and he's still a virgin. He's also never sung karaoke in public. I told him that I can get him high and drunk (not at the same time...bad idea), and singing and potentially get him laid. Here's a chunk of the conversation:
(23:54:52) PuZep2: can you really get me laid? I haven't been able to decide if you were joking or not
(23:55:47) Jessie: i dunno if i can get you laid
(23:55:56) Jessie: that stuff kinda depends on the chemistry between the people doing it
(23:56:05) Jessie: and i don't have many single female friends
(23:56:16) Jessie: but we can go to bars
(23:56:24) Jake: good enough for me
(23:56:42) Jessie: and I can always deflower you if it comes down to it ;)
(23:56:52) Jake: also good
(23:57:29) Jessie: oh rly?
(23:58:14) Jake: you realize my only excuse evaporated when you broke up with mckee [also known as Brian], yea?
(23:58:37) Jessie: well...I tend to assume that people aren't actually into me
(23:59:03) Jake: I can't believe you still do that
(23:59:14) Jake: also, I asked for nude pics, that's gotta count for somethin
(23:59:27) Jessie: good point
(23:59:55) Jessie: then again, i think there are boys who would ask for nude pics and not actually be interested
(00:00:20) Jake: I asked for them because i think they, and you, are really sexy
(00:01:49) Jessie: :-D
(00:02:09) Jake: have I stoked your ego enough for one night, or would you like more? :)
(00:02:32) Jessie: more please
etc...
Then he continued to tell me that he thinks I'm sexy and mentioned that one of my naughty photos had been the desktop on his computer for a while. And we kept talking for three more hours. Not quite all night, as I had class in the morning, but pretty late for a night after which I had class in the morning. It was interesting, 'cause a bunch of it was just like the conversations we normally have, but with some dirty talk thrown in. And, apparently, an orgasm for him at the end. :-D
So, yay! He's gonna be here March 6-10, and Dad has approved the plan of him sleeping on our basement couch. Which is about 30 feet from my bed.
(00:11:32) Jessie: well, so, i can pretty much guarantee that you'll get laid while you're in colorado