MY WONDERFUL FUCKING FAMILY
Hey everyone! I'm moving out soon and I'm getting a job. Fuck family, I'm sick of everyone telling me how useless I am. Im going to pursue MY happiness for now on instead of wasting my time trying to satisfy my fucking parents who still think of me as a failure.
And thanks mom, for never knowing who I am and for wanting to put my ass in jail simply because I dont want to spend the rest of my life getting horribly degraded by you just because I want to be who I am. Thanks for taking all my straight A's for granted and never telling me you're proud of me or that you care about me. Thanks for telling me that I'm useless, stupid, idiotic and that I embarass you. I will be sure to remember that when you're dead.
I hope you wind up as miserable as anyone on this planet because I despise you for making my childhood hell as well as my years now. I hate you for telling the whole family that I'm a slut and I sleep around when even you know that's not true. Or for telling strangers that you meet on the street how fucking disgusting I am, or for lying to religious organizations and telling them that I'm a drug addict and I beat you or some shit.
And thanks to my stepdad for never doing shit about it. Thanks to my wonderful sister for judging me based on the lies my mom says about me and for not bothering to get the facts straight and for making my life hell by being everything mommy ever wanted her to be. Fuck, at least I'm not as ignorant as you are.
Fact is, I have no family. Everyone hates me because of the lies they hear about me. They hate me because they don't bother to get to know me. They just assume shit about me.
There are other people out there that care for me and they are my real family because they know who I am and they know I would never do the horible things you, as my "family," accuse me of doing. They are there for me as I am for them and they don't disrespect me and treat me like shit the way you do simply because I happen to be "different."
I'm so sick of spending my time crying over the fact that I'm so imperfect and shit. The fact is, I'm not the problem, YOU are. All of you. I wasted all my life trying ot make you happy, I tried to kill myself various times simply because I felt like a failure for you, and I realize now it was all a waste of my time.
I'm the one that's going ot build a future for myself. Not you. You never taught me anything except that I was a mistake. You were never there when I needed you, you simply yelled and screamed at me. I'm 17 now and less than a year away from starting my life. And I will succeed, there's no doubt in my mind that I will succeed in life. And no thanks to you.
Don't come to me when you're old and dying, I will have my own loving family to worry about. And I will teach them not to judge people based on their image or based on what society says. I will not disrespect my children; instead, I will love them and remind them everyday that they are specialto me and no matter who they choose to be, I will be proud of them. I promise myself I will never hurt my children in any way, and i will not make them suffer emotionally through my discouraging words. None of that will ever come from me.
All this time I've been suffering for you. I've had enough. I don't care if you disown me or not. I'm leaving for good.
And thanks mom, for never knowing who I am and for wanting to put my ass in jail simply because I dont want to spend the rest of my life getting horribly degraded by you just because I want to be who I am. Thanks for taking all my straight A's for granted and never telling me you're proud of me or that you care about me. Thanks for telling me that I'm useless, stupid, idiotic and that I embarass you. I will be sure to remember that when you're dead.
I hope you wind up as miserable as anyone on this planet because I despise you for making my childhood hell as well as my years now. I hate you for telling the whole family that I'm a slut and I sleep around when even you know that's not true. Or for telling strangers that you meet on the street how fucking disgusting I am, or for lying to religious organizations and telling them that I'm a drug addict and I beat you or some shit.
And thanks to my stepdad for never doing shit about it. Thanks to my wonderful sister for judging me based on the lies my mom says about me and for not bothering to get the facts straight and for making my life hell by being everything mommy ever wanted her to be. Fuck, at least I'm not as ignorant as you are.
Fact is, I have no family. Everyone hates me because of the lies they hear about me. They hate me because they don't bother to get to know me. They just assume shit about me.
There are other people out there that care for me and they are my real family because they know who I am and they know I would never do the horible things you, as my "family," accuse me of doing. They are there for me as I am for them and they don't disrespect me and treat me like shit the way you do simply because I happen to be "different."
I'm so sick of spending my time crying over the fact that I'm so imperfect and shit. The fact is, I'm not the problem, YOU are. All of you. I wasted all my life trying ot make you happy, I tried to kill myself various times simply because I felt like a failure for you, and I realize now it was all a waste of my time.
I'm the one that's going ot build a future for myself. Not you. You never taught me anything except that I was a mistake. You were never there when I needed you, you simply yelled and screamed at me. I'm 17 now and less than a year away from starting my life. And I will succeed, there's no doubt in my mind that I will succeed in life. And no thanks to you.
Don't come to me when you're old and dying, I will have my own loving family to worry about. And I will teach them not to judge people based on their image or based on what society says. I will not disrespect my children; instead, I will love them and remind them everyday that they are specialto me and no matter who they choose to be, I will be proud of them. I promise myself I will never hurt my children in any way, and i will not make them suffer emotionally through my discouraging words. None of that will ever come from me.
All this time I've been suffering for you. I've had enough. I don't care if you disown me or not. I'm leaving for good.