So if youre bored you can read this but uhhh i advise you dont JUST SKIP IT!!!... thanks<33
Ok so this time last year i didnt have a car since my last cars transmission died and Ive been driving around lookin at the xmas lights and its like i wish i could just go and take someone out and just go driving looking at the lights. Thats what i did when i was little ever year with my family. I guess im being nostalgic? I wish I had a girl to just listen to my ramblings and to understand it fully!! Uh i dunno i think itd be fun to look at the lights. I also know where theres a man made waterfall and it would be so romantic and nice. too bad i suck and have no one!! oh well. I had an awesome night tonight!! I went to the rehearsal for the xmas concert on wednesday!! dont worry im still gonna do mad dogs dinner ill just be a lil late<3 but like i havent played tuba in like 3 years and i sucked so bad!! It was wierd i had to drive to pjs house cuz i didnt have a mouthpiece so i bored his. and by the time i came back we had to play on stage!! so i wasnt warmed up and the instrument was outta tune and i think i was flat? my lips were quivering from being outta shape!! yes lips have muscles inside of them. So after they were done practicing i stayed on stage and i was messing around all tryin to get back to my status of playing and my site reading is horible!! :( One of the kids came up to me and was saying that i sound professional and shit!! he thouught i was a teacher for my living. I was happy when i heard that eventhough i know he had no idea what i sounded like. Uhh so i came home got some money from aunt shes paranoid but shes kool she could hang with kenny and the crew!! she likes kamakazee? yea im horrible at spelling. so im feeling good just I wish things were different i guess. But im strong and ill always be here. so if anyone actually read this IM SORRY!!! I tried to talk to my mom about all this stuff but she has no idea what im saying. so i just needed to type it out imma make it a memory thingy too.