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[killerlady]

i tell them all im not depressed.
that i didnt mean it.
that i didnt really want to die.
im a horrible liar,
and as the days goes by,
everyone is starting to see it.
i dont want to do this anymore.
no no no.
not ever again,
not for one more minute,one more second.
maybe i do need some help,
maybe i just need a new life,
maybe i need some drastic escape,
to start over,
and never know the same people,
do the same things,
feel the same feelings.
i never want to wake up,
not until this all just goes away.