(no subject)

[killerheart]

through out my life I have been trying to better myself.
I have focused on keeping myself happy so that my depression doesnt take over again.
but it is always there pushing at me.

all the work I have done.
and here I am.
in love with someone great.
but he is all that has been keeping me happy.

I havent applied for any school loans.
I havent even checked on classes til today.
and I have no one to talk to but josh.
no one.

I pushed all my friends away because I thought I was never good enough.
that they didnt understand me and that I was never fun.
depression hurts.

I give up.