I am so tired of being weak

[killerheart]

am I so lame to always wonder how you see me now.
why do I always ignore those I want to be with.
I will never know I love them.
I treat them like everyone else and when I start the blush I walk away.
I miss you darling..
I miss all of you.
you all came to the point where you walked away.
I am so bad at this.
I am so bad at forgetting the things I said and how you looked at me.
I need to forget these things that no longer matter.
because I need to.
I needed to be better.