come on and pick me up. when i am falling down. youve got to pick me up.
so im in the weirdest mood right now.
and its super bad that i have about half a bottle of rum in my filing cabinet.
i am sooo tempted to drink it.
but i know it is soooo bad if i do.
will end in god knows what.
but im just so damn frustrated!
why is it....
do i ALWAYS fall for the WRONG guy?
they are always either already taken or just completely wrong??
mostly the first though.
god its awful!
and whats worse is when a guy is actually interested in me.
but im hung up on someone else.
but as soon as they give up and start dating someone else.
it all clicks and is like hey...come back.
what the fuck is wrong with me?????
why do i always do this?
i hate it, i dont think there has been one guy i have ever liked that has been available AND right for me.
why do i always have to be single? i mean dear god its not fair.
even fat ugly bitchy girls can get super hot funny nice guys. :[
why cant i?
am i really that bad looking and that annoying??
god damnit.
its just not fair.
and at the moment im REALLY starting to get sick of it.
cuz i am sooooo hung up right now.
on personas i cant have.
and it kills me.
god i need to go grab one of my books or something
need to keep my mind off it.
(and off the rum in my filing cabinet)
cuz i know if i crck open the bottle right now.
im soooo fucked.
plus i have to work at noon.
and i know if i start drinking right now,
i will keep drinking for at least an hour or so
probably drink a quarter of the bottle
if not the whole thing
then be incredibly ready to kill someone
when i have to work.
fuckness.
i just want a guy to like me.
one that i actually like back
who is cute.
and funny.
and sweet.
and fun to be around.
who i can hang out with.
and watch movies in his arms with.
and make out with ;]
im just so damn sick of being alone.
haha i already sound drunk.
im gonna try and replace the alcohol with chocolate.
lol. dunno if this is gonna work too well.
but im gonna have to go with it.
anyways....no one actually reads this.
i dont know why i ramble on this so much.
and i dont knwo why im in such a weird mood right now.
because come on...yesterday was absolutely fucking amazing :] :]
but hey
if u do read this,
text me and tell me you do
and give me some feedback.
i know this sounds gay.
but help me out,
cuz i must be doing something wrong :[
and its super bad that i have about half a bottle of rum in my filing cabinet.
i am sooo tempted to drink it.
but i know it is soooo bad if i do.
will end in god knows what.
but im just so damn frustrated!
why is it....
do i ALWAYS fall for the WRONG guy?
they are always either already taken or just completely wrong??
mostly the first though.
god its awful!
and whats worse is when a guy is actually interested in me.
but im hung up on someone else.
but as soon as they give up and start dating someone else.
it all clicks and is like hey...come back.
what the fuck is wrong with me?????
why do i always do this?
i hate it, i dont think there has been one guy i have ever liked that has been available AND right for me.
why do i always have to be single? i mean dear god its not fair.
even fat ugly bitchy girls can get super hot funny nice guys. :[
why cant i?
am i really that bad looking and that annoying??
god damnit.
its just not fair.
and at the moment im REALLY starting to get sick of it.
cuz i am sooooo hung up right now.
on personas i cant have.
and it kills me.
god i need to go grab one of my books or something
need to keep my mind off it.
(and off the rum in my filing cabinet)
cuz i know if i crck open the bottle right now.
im soooo fucked.
plus i have to work at noon.
and i know if i start drinking right now,
i will keep drinking for at least an hour or so
probably drink a quarter of the bottle
if not the whole thing
then be incredibly ready to kill someone
when i have to work.
fuckness.
i just want a guy to like me.
one that i actually like back
who is cute.
and funny.
and sweet.
and fun to be around.
who i can hang out with.
and watch movies in his arms with.
and make out with ;]
im just so damn sick of being alone.
haha i already sound drunk.
im gonna try and replace the alcohol with chocolate.
lol. dunno if this is gonna work too well.
but im gonna have to go with it.
anyways....no one actually reads this.
i dont know why i ramble on this so much.
and i dont knwo why im in such a weird mood right now.
because come on...yesterday was absolutely fucking amazing :] :]
but hey
if u do read this,
text me and tell me you do
and give me some feedback.
i know this sounds gay.
but help me out,
cuz i must be doing something wrong :[