And when she breaks down and let's you down, I hope you know she doesn't meant to..
It's a comic book crush that taught you to trust
Staring out of the stands at a rock 'n roll band
And a hero no one else could save
It was never much but it was all you gave
okay.. so.. i keep forgetting to post and when i do remember i get too lazy and put it off. but here i am.. sititng in front of my computer ready to write. i have decided that i need to see a shrink. like for real. i have all these doubts about people and it's affecting my life in a big way. i always think all my friends hate me and i always think erik is falling out of love with me. i need to get over it bc its probably starting to annoy everyone.
i had my first gay club experience last week.. let me tell you it was the most fun ive probably ever had at a club okay.. they played the best music and no boys tried groping me or kissing me. it was awesome. plus i got to dance with my favorite people ever. i can't wait to go again.
i went to stonehill this weekend and drank some tequila and fought with erik bc he lied to me and his friends about the most retarded thing ever. he wanted to give up sex for lent bc he said no one thought he could do it. i complained a lot of course, but he told me he decided he wasnt going to do it bc we only see each other once a week and it would be pointless anyways. so we went on like usual, and i was talking to kelly this weekend and she was like "how's the no sex thing going" and i was like "oh erik decided we werent going to do that now".. but apparently he was telling everyone else that he had given it up and hadn't had sex in weeks.. but he lied to them and i had no idea they thought that and stuff. i was pissed bc he said he didnt go through with it bc i wouldnt let him.. which, yea i was upset about it bc i feel so close to him when we have sex.. but i can't tell him what to do and if he really wanted to give it up he would have. so i ended up opening my big mouth and saying that our relationship is based entirely on sex and whatever and he got mad at me and said the real reason he wanted to give it up was to prove to me that he loved me and stuff. we fought a little and then we talked it all over and since i was drunk everything came out and i didnt really hold back and stuff and it was all good. i guess ive just felt neglected lately since he's so busy with school, work, lacrosse, and all his homework. anyways, all i well and i love him.
on an extremely happy note.. we are going to see greenday in concert in april and i'm souped. he's never been to a concert before so i'm happy that we'll be together for his first experience. i love making him happy <33
peace.. alicia