Just wow....
So, today has been an epically crazy day. What I had expected to be a nice easy day off turned into something so much more entertaining. When Tony left this morning I wasn't thinking about doing much. I was going to do some sunbathing, catch up on some reading, play a little videogames...the usual calm things I do to relax. But, was this to be? No.
To start things off: my topless sunbathing was interrupted by the unexpected arrival of my sister and my nephews. Adorable, yes. Equally irritable since it was absolutely gorgeous out yesterday and the sun felt so nice on my bare back. So, I dealt with my sister and three nephews until my mom got there. Then I had to deal with her irritability on top of dealing with my sister. In the chaotic mix of that, I managed to get my hair cut into this wicked cute new style. After Aja left it was time to wait until Erin got here so I called Angelo and spoke to him for a few minutes. It wasn't as awkward as I'd expected but still...it was tense. I apologized, he apologized and we agreed we needed to talk this out in a reasonable, adult like manner. I already miss him and it feels like days since I've seen him (which is has been... n.n;;). So, I'm waiting another little while to see if he calls me back and debating about whether or not I should call him and arrange a meeting. I want to but I'm not sure its a good idea. Then again when have I ever been known to have a 'good' idea about love or anything that goes with it.
So, the next piece of chaos in my day was the always beautiful and charming Miss Erin. Now, don't get me wrong. I adore her. In a lot of ways she reminds me of me and she's another one of those strong girls I surround myself with and so she's been adopted by both mommy and me. Her hair looks amazing and I'm thankful that mom took the time out of her day to do it as a favor to me but I'm really on this crusade that prom is the one time in a girls life that she gets to be the truest form of princess. As soon as I get pics I'll post them so you can all see how stunningly beautiful she looks. [tears]. Jamie came over as well to hang out for the last portion of hair and the three of us just had a riot of a good time. I do occasionally feel weird about hanging out with a 17 yo and an 18 yo but then I remember they're just as chill as I am and I brush it off since it doesn't really matter. Then I went with the two of them to get their nails done. But in the interim Erin and I got a chance to talk about alot of things and...I know she wants Angie would get his shit together and leave the wife..but we agreed that if I'm to stay in the picture I can't really play mommy to her. Which I'd already known. But, I decided that she was like a little sister to me and until Angelo and I are a definite fixture thats what she's going to stay.
But, the awkward part (seems there were alot of these) came when I meet Peggy. For those who don't know Peggy is Angelo's ex-wife. Yes, you read right...his EX-WIFE. Oh my. And here I am, currently his ex-girlfriend. She seems like a really cool lady and we got along great. I'd actually like to hang with her again as friends. Not as how I was introduced. Which was as Angelo's assumed fuck buddy. Assumed correctly but still...I'd been sitting there for about 15 minutes when out of the blue Peg asked me if I was uncomfortable. I said "no" and told her it was rather hard to make me uncomfortable to which she smiled. Then she asked me if she could ask me a question. Without hesitation I said sure. I think that might have been my first mistake. She asked me what the hell I'd been thinking with the whole Angie thing. Something I couldn't quite answer since I'm not entirely sure what I'd been thinking when things began between the two of us.
So, we talked for awhile. About him. About things in general. It gave me some insight into who he is and why he's done the things he's done. But it also showed me how little he's changed in certain aspects. It was refreshing to see another perspective on the man I love. she did thank me though, for being one of the few to stick up for Erin against him and Antoinette. After meeting her though I came home to a Tony. While it felt nice to come home and have him be here a few minutes later it was still strange. Perhaps its because we're both sick of the game and looking for something that I know we could find in each other but neither of us wants to make that first move towards it. Instead we talk about what we want, subtle hints to the other. I'll write more on that later though as I'm currently getting ready for work.
much love to everyone and congrats to the graduates.
xoxoxoxox
Nel Nel misses everyone.
To start things off: my topless sunbathing was interrupted by the unexpected arrival of my sister and my nephews. Adorable, yes. Equally irritable since it was absolutely gorgeous out yesterday and the sun felt so nice on my bare back. So, I dealt with my sister and three nephews until my mom got there. Then I had to deal with her irritability on top of dealing with my sister. In the chaotic mix of that, I managed to get my hair cut into this wicked cute new style. After Aja left it was time to wait until Erin got here so I called Angelo and spoke to him for a few minutes. It wasn't as awkward as I'd expected but still...it was tense. I apologized, he apologized and we agreed we needed to talk this out in a reasonable, adult like manner. I already miss him and it feels like days since I've seen him (which is has been... n.n;;). So, I'm waiting another little while to see if he calls me back and debating about whether or not I should call him and arrange a meeting. I want to but I'm not sure its a good idea. Then again when have I ever been known to have a 'good' idea about love or anything that goes with it.
So, the next piece of chaos in my day was the always beautiful and charming Miss Erin. Now, don't get me wrong. I adore her. In a lot of ways she reminds me of me and she's another one of those strong girls I surround myself with and so she's been adopted by both mommy and me. Her hair looks amazing and I'm thankful that mom took the time out of her day to do it as a favor to me but I'm really on this crusade that prom is the one time in a girls life that she gets to be the truest form of princess. As soon as I get pics I'll post them so you can all see how stunningly beautiful she looks. [tears]. Jamie came over as well to hang out for the last portion of hair and the three of us just had a riot of a good time. I do occasionally feel weird about hanging out with a 17 yo and an 18 yo but then I remember they're just as chill as I am and I brush it off since it doesn't really matter. Then I went with the two of them to get their nails done. But in the interim Erin and I got a chance to talk about alot of things and...I know she wants Angie would get his shit together and leave the wife..but we agreed that if I'm to stay in the picture I can't really play mommy to her. Which I'd already known. But, I decided that she was like a little sister to me and until Angelo and I are a definite fixture thats what she's going to stay.
But, the awkward part (seems there were alot of these) came when I meet Peggy. For those who don't know Peggy is Angelo's ex-wife. Yes, you read right...his EX-WIFE. Oh my. And here I am, currently his ex-girlfriend. She seems like a really cool lady and we got along great. I'd actually like to hang with her again as friends. Not as how I was introduced. Which was as Angelo's assumed fuck buddy. Assumed correctly but still...I'd been sitting there for about 15 minutes when out of the blue Peg asked me if I was uncomfortable. I said "no" and told her it was rather hard to make me uncomfortable to which she smiled. Then she asked me if she could ask me a question. Without hesitation I said sure. I think that might have been my first mistake. She asked me what the hell I'd been thinking with the whole Angie thing. Something I couldn't quite answer since I'm not entirely sure what I'd been thinking when things began between the two of us.
So, we talked for awhile. About him. About things in general. It gave me some insight into who he is and why he's done the things he's done. But it also showed me how little he's changed in certain aspects. It was refreshing to see another perspective on the man I love. she did thank me though, for being one of the few to stick up for Erin against him and Antoinette. After meeting her though I came home to a Tony. While it felt nice to come home and have him be here a few minutes later it was still strange. Perhaps its because we're both sick of the game and looking for something that I know we could find in each other but neither of us wants to make that first move towards it. Instead we talk about what we want, subtle hints to the other. I'll write more on that later though as I'm currently getting ready for work.
much love to everyone and congrats to the graduates.
xoxoxoxox
Nel Nel misses everyone.