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[killerboots]

hiss. right now i hate everyone. i'm in a terribly weird place at the moment, due to my feeling ever so lonely and just wanting to be around people and feel loved, but on the other hand i want everyone to fuck off. i'm slightly pissed off that i don't know what i want to do with my life. whenever people find out that i'm not originally from calgary, they asked me why i moved here. i tell them that i moved here because i had intentions of taking art classes at ACAD, but.. well, that didn't happen. so why DID i move here? not that i regret it, because i really like it here. but, my being here has no point. i work, make money, use that money to pay my rent, and that's it. i could go to acad and take the classes that i was looking into, but the more i look at my art, the more i feel that it's not what i'm meant to do in life, and so it'd just be a waste of time. i don't know what i'm good at. i'm very frustrated and i am so very angry with myself. i just don't have any good skills!

i feel i've written this entry a million times before. it's how i've felt a million times before. and i wish i knew what i could do to quit ever feeling like this again.