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Rinali-chan -- Exploring with you was fun. We should do that again sometime.
Daddy Kira and Mommy Athrun-nii-- tea was lovely. Thank you both for having me. I really enjoyed that.
[Private//Hackable]
Well, now they're gone too. It's a fucking shock, yeah... Yes, it was abrupt-- but this is the second time around for this in the City, so it's a little easier to handle.
I mean-- people come and people go, right? Relationships are, at best-- what's the fucking word? God, don't tell me I forgot... >_< Human relationships are ephemeral at best. Not that they're worthless or anything, it's just that they don't last. This isn't news for me, I guess. It's been happening to me even before Ev-san and Amadeus-san left. Even before Aslan.... I've been alone since I was eight years old. This isn't the first time people have left me behind, and I'm fairly certain that it won't be the last.
I admit, it's a waste of time and energy getting upset over something beyond my control, especially something that was inevitably bound to happen.
Am I so childish, immature and petty that I'd let myself get down over this? Am I so masochistic that I'd let myself needlessly suffer when I wasn't at fault? When there wasn't anyone to be blamed at all? No. I'm not a drama queen. I'm not emo. Emo is something I'll leave to Athrun-nii and the flamboyant rich blonde dude.
I'd be lying if I said that those people didn't mean anything to me, that I'm not sad that they're gone, that I could easily forget they were even alive, that I don't feel scared as fuck without them... but I'm not going to let it stand in my way or bring me down. I'm pretty sure none of them would want that for me and I sure as hell don't want it for myself.
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[edit] 00:00 -- Eclipse, huh? Whatever.
Daddy Kira and Mommy Athrun-nii-- tea was lovely. Thank you both for having me. I really enjoyed that.
[Private//Hackable]
Well, now they're gone too. It's a fucking shock, yeah... Yes, it was abrupt-- but this is the second time around for this in the City, so it's a little easier to handle.
I mean-- people come and people go, right? Relationships are, at best-- what's the fucking word? God, don't tell me I forgot... >_< Human relationships are ephemeral at best. Not that they're worthless or anything, it's just that they don't last. This isn't news for me, I guess. It's been happening to me even before Ev-san and Amadeus-san left. Even before Aslan.... I've been alone since I was eight years old. This isn't the first time people have left me behind, and I'm fairly certain that it won't be the last.
I admit, it's a waste of time and energy getting upset over something beyond my control, especially something that was inevitably bound to happen.
Am I so childish, immature and petty that I'd let myself get down over this? Am I so masochistic that I'd let myself needlessly suffer when I wasn't at fault? When there wasn't anyone to be blamed at all? No. I'm not a drama queen. I'm not emo. Emo is something I'll leave to Athrun-nii and the flamboyant rich blonde dude.
I'd be lying if I said that those people didn't mean anything to me, that I'm not sad that they're gone, that I could easily forget they were even alive, that I don't feel scared as fuck without them... but I'm not going to let it stand in my way or bring me down. I'm pretty sure none of them would want that for me and I sure as hell don't want it for myself.
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[edit] 00:00 -- Eclipse, huh? Whatever.