update time :)
less than 2 weeks to write my dissertation (haha) but i think i'll get it done, quite simply because i have to. it's gonna be 2 weeks living in the library (how i wish it was 24 hr access..), but to be honest i don't actually mind that!
went to cornwall a couple of weeks ago - 21 of us drove down and spent 4 days rock climbing, seeing the archaeological sites, eating pasties and drinking cider... it was absolutely fucking epic.
rough tor, cornwall
a pub in falmouth
gyllyngvase beach, falmouth
men-an-tol (or, the 'lol' stones)
crawling through the lol stone - supposed to cure rickets or aid fertility, not sure which!
hi, i'm a viking!
... no post since then cos the cornwall comedown was unpleasant and i've been trying to avoid the not particularly interesting self-indulgent ramblings which i've taken to filling this space with... but i'm ok now! :D
in between times...
- library lifestyle and last minute essay stress (surprise..)
- entertaining conversations with ali re: xbox, alan sugar and ronald mcdonald's incontinence-inducing abilities (not sure whether that's more to do with him being a scary clown-type or mcdonalds food..)
- small stresses about trying to regain a sense of self and being taken as 'who i really am' by my friends and an eventual decision to, as far as possible, just be. if people can't deal with me then they can get over themselves because quite frankly they could do a hell of a lot worse.
- feeder announced for the summer ball (fuck YES.)
- scrabble
- mark went back to america :( farewell drinks in lloyds were good times though, despite em's bag being stolen!
- powerthirst [
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- high school musical (1, 2 AND 3...)
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dr horrible's singalong blog- extreme love for spotify -
spread the word, spread the love- yesterday's barbecue - beautiful food + awesome music + cider = dancing (and skanking) in richie's kitchen. simple things...
- plenty more that is not worth mentioning (and probably a lot more that is.. mushy brain)
you know when you get those small yet blinding moments of clarity where you understand just that little bit more what life is about? you don't even have to be doing anything profound; things just suddenly make that little bit more sense than they did before. there were several points in cornwall where i just found myself sat there thinking, 'this is it' - or at least it should be.. i did NOT want to come back and face my dissertation.. i wanted to spend all my time outdoors in beautiful places with the wind in my hair and the most amazing company. and while it's not exactly faesible for me to make a living that way, it's more about realigning perspective - focusing on what's really and truly important.
i know that this is a slightly stupid time to start thinking of the dissertation as trivial, however while i know that i'm paying for this education and the opportunity to 'shine' academically, it just seems obvious to me that it matters less how well i graduate, more how well i'm living life. there is no point to any of this if i am not happy. (that's not saying it won't get done, of course - i'll knuckle down just.. yeah.)
i want more times like yesterday's barbecue. i want next month (and next year if i can stay) to be something to look back on and remember as just the most fantastic times ever. this isn't the end of anything, it's the beginning and i refuse to see it as anything different. i want to keep these friends for a long time to come. :)
in other news, thanks to dale i am really [really] fucking addicted to this song...
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yeah. how's that for a sexy riff? god..
finis.