life...

[killer___xoxox]

I havent really cryed in a while im crying right now.. I cant put my finger on one thing thats making me so sad... I'm scared I'm lonly im confused.. i cant deel with my emotions anymore. i make stupid pathetic choices because i still love gomer... I blame myself for everything and anything. I feel fucking horrible.
I wish he loved me i wish he needed me i wish i didnt do the things i do.. nothings easy but why does it always have to be so fucking hard. give me a fucking brake.
I wanna go to sleep and never wake up.