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i wonder....
if i hate too much.
where has it gotten me? where is it taking me?
i was the nice guy for so fucking long. but i realized i got stepped on by everyone and that made me unhappy. so i began being angry and hating a lot of people. but when you hate so much you have very little to be happy about. this is the dilemma. it doesnt make any sense.
maybe its not fear im seeking?
maybe im just looking for love in a pure form.
i had that.
but it was taken away.... thus i hate again. see the vicious cycle occuring?
am i not cool because i dont get high? or drunk? or fuck everything that walks?
what is your definition of cool?
somewhere in my concience there is a void. how do i fill it? do i look for happiness? or let it find me. so far its done a shitty job on its own.
how often have i had to say "fuck everyone else" and rely on myself? too often if you ask me. i dont belong to anything. when you dont believe in anything its hard to belong. im sure all of this will be gone when i wake up. i hope so...
if i hate too much.
where has it gotten me? where is it taking me?
i was the nice guy for so fucking long. but i realized i got stepped on by everyone and that made me unhappy. so i began being angry and hating a lot of people. but when you hate so much you have very little to be happy about. this is the dilemma. it doesnt make any sense.
maybe its not fear im seeking?
maybe im just looking for love in a pure form.
i had that.
but it was taken away.... thus i hate again. see the vicious cycle occuring?
am i not cool because i dont get high? or drunk? or fuck everything that walks?
what is your definition of cool?
somewhere in my concience there is a void. how do i fill it? do i look for happiness? or let it find me. so far its done a shitty job on its own.
how often have i had to say "fuck everyone else" and rely on myself? too often if you ask me. i dont belong to anything. when you dont believe in anything its hard to belong. im sure all of this will be gone when i wake up. i hope so...