everything about Matt..
so yeah, the last time i talked to matt he was being a dick head.
I dont know why...I was being nice and all carring on a normal conversation and all, all of a sudden he goes into bitch mode. whenever he does that i get off the phone, but this time i cried. I want so badly to see a nice side...my feelings for him and getting weaker, which for him is prolly a good thing. i dunno I cant figure it out. when james and i went on a break he was right there waving his arms so i would see him, and i did, dont get me wrong, i was just afraid. i didnt want to get into another relationship, i wanted to know matt on another level, but i wasnt ready to be with anyone, and I think matt thinks it was him that i didnt want. it wasnt like that at all. still to this day i care for him more then i should, in ways i shouldnt. everyday when i get home, i contemplate wether or not i should call him. I never do tho...maybe because i dont want to argue with him. but i so badly want to look him in the eye and say "yes, i do care for you...but you'd think with all the shit you have been through, you would be more mature...just fuckin grow the hell up MATT! I really care about you and you can think this is all bullshit, go ahead...never talk to me if you feel like it. thats your choice." at least i said this...now i can go sleep...GET OUT OF MY HEAD....
so yeah... HI MATT!
uhh, yeah
LOVES,
K.D. (Joy)
"Me, I'm dishonest,and with a dishonest man you can always trust him to be dishonest. Honestly. It's the honest ones you have to watch out for, because you never know when he's going to turn around and do something incredibly stupid!"-Johnny Depp
I dont know why...I was being nice and all carring on a normal conversation and all, all of a sudden he goes into bitch mode. whenever he does that i get off the phone, but this time i cried. I want so badly to see a nice side...my feelings for him and getting weaker, which for him is prolly a good thing. i dunno I cant figure it out. when james and i went on a break he was right there waving his arms so i would see him, and i did, dont get me wrong, i was just afraid. i didnt want to get into another relationship, i wanted to know matt on another level, but i wasnt ready to be with anyone, and I think matt thinks it was him that i didnt want. it wasnt like that at all. still to this day i care for him more then i should, in ways i shouldnt. everyday when i get home, i contemplate wether or not i should call him. I never do tho...maybe because i dont want to argue with him. but i so badly want to look him in the eye and say "yes, i do care for you...but you'd think with all the shit you have been through, you would be more mature...just fuckin grow the hell up MATT! I really care about you and you can think this is all bullshit, go ahead...never talk to me if you feel like it. thats your choice." at least i said this...now i can go sleep...GET OUT OF MY HEAD....
so yeah... HI MATT!
uhh, yeah
LOVES,
K.D. (Joy)
"Me, I'm dishonest,and with a dishonest man you can always trust him to be dishonest. Honestly. It's the honest ones you have to watch out for, because you never know when he's going to turn around and do something incredibly stupid!"-Johnny Depp