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Well, school was good today.
I did well in both of my classes.
Spent a lot of alone time today.
Did a lot of thinking.
I thought about begging forgivness.
Then I realized it's not worth it.
I am just going to keep losing them to every flaw I have and since I was sadly not born perfect so, it will never stop.
I am just going to try and let them go.
I have very few but very solid and wonderful friendships.
And they mean more then all of the others combined.
I have had Melissa since kindergarten.
She has never given up on me and vice versa and believe you me we have had worse fights then all of the others combined.
I have Mindy.
I think we'll be friends for a while.
She is just a really fabulous person.
I'm so excited for her life.
I don't know how to explain.
I just know she is going to live a great life.
And I have Robin regardless of how many days or months apart our phone calls or visits are, everytime is as though we have seen and talked to eachother every day since the last.
I think I will be ok.
If they want to hang out, they will call.
But I won't hold my breath.
I am easy to diss and dismiss.
I am realizing that now.
The things I valued about our friendships probably don't matter to them like I have led myself to believe that they did.
Maybe it will turn out like usual and with time they will all come back.
Or maybe it's for real this time.
Either way I feel like I am ready.
Ready for a new start.
Ready for change.
Signing off,
Jenna
P.s.- I have a new screen name.
You can add it and leave it or you can add it and block it, that's up to you.
AnatomyOfAGirl3
I did well in both of my classes.
Spent a lot of alone time today.
Did a lot of thinking.
I thought about begging forgivness.
Then I realized it's not worth it.
I am just going to keep losing them to every flaw I have and since I was sadly not born perfect so, it will never stop.
I am just going to try and let them go.
I have very few but very solid and wonderful friendships.
And they mean more then all of the others combined.
I have had Melissa since kindergarten.
She has never given up on me and vice versa and believe you me we have had worse fights then all of the others combined.
I have Mindy.
I think we'll be friends for a while.
She is just a really fabulous person.
I'm so excited for her life.
I don't know how to explain.
I just know she is going to live a great life.
And I have Robin regardless of how many days or months apart our phone calls or visits are, everytime is as though we have seen and talked to eachother every day since the last.
I think I will be ok.
If they want to hang out, they will call.
But I won't hold my breath.
I am easy to diss and dismiss.
I am realizing that now.
The things I valued about our friendships probably don't matter to them like I have led myself to believe that they did.
Maybe it will turn out like usual and with time they will all come back.
Or maybe it's for real this time.
Either way I feel like I am ready.
Ready for a new start.
Ready for change.
Signing off,
Jenna
P.s.- I have a new screen name.
You can add it and leave it or you can add it and block it, that's up to you.
AnatomyOfAGirl3