Thank god I have good friends.........
Yesterday I got a rather harsh email from an old friend. His constant hatred towards me is his own hang up. He knows that he upsets me by writing these emails, and that is exactly what he is trying to do. What happened with us happened a long time ago, but he still blames me for everything. And I have taken blame for ALOT of it but not ALL of it.
So, of course, I call my best friend Erika to talk about this because she knows EVERYTHING about it. We had a long talk about 8 months ago about it, and I told her everything. And she gave me her honest opinion about it. Which I really really appreciate because she made me see something that I couldn't see on my own. Misery loves company. This old friend of mine only sends these things to me when things are going really well for me. When I am miserable I never hear from him. But I make a post on my journal saying how happy I am right now and how good things are going for me in a new relationship and SMACK, the next day I get these hate filled emails whose only purpose is to upset me.
So, of course, I write him back, but that will pretty much be the last time unless something changes drastically. I don't want to do this anymore. When we met in person awhile back, it was closure for me. Don't get me wrong, I still care about him alot but I am no longer going to drag this whole mess out, I don't want to, I don't need it. So, to my old friend I write, let it go and if you still want to be friends we can slowly start to talk again, but if I get one more of these emails from you, that's it, I am done. I hope you understand what I am saying to you, I really do. I still care about you and you know that if you or a member of your family ever really needed me, I would be there. But as far as all the hatred, I am done, I want NO part of it. Let it go.
Now, on to the good news, besides these emails I am talking about, I am great. I am really happy. I met a guy who really cares about me. We spend as much time together as possible and I love that. We have bets on the Super Bowl and I hope to hell I win, that way he has to take me to Ocean Shores for a weekend:-) Bottom line, I am very happy in my new relationship and it has been a very long time since I have had a guy treat me like a queen. I didn't realize how much that would mean to me. Since I am such a tomboy, I never really considered it that important, but it really is, I am glad I finally realize this. But I do know one thing for sure, if I ever screw this up (which I don't think I will), I really will be the stupidest bitch in the world because he is absolutely amazing.
So, that is all the news I have for you guys, I guess I wrote this to get some feedback from Paul, Sam and the rest of the lj crew, so hit me with it? Do you think I am wrong about this from a guys point of view?
Hope everyone has a great weekend, wooohooooo, Super Bowl, GO PANTHERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, of course, I call my best friend Erika to talk about this because she knows EVERYTHING about it. We had a long talk about 8 months ago about it, and I told her everything. And she gave me her honest opinion about it. Which I really really appreciate because she made me see something that I couldn't see on my own. Misery loves company. This old friend of mine only sends these things to me when things are going really well for me. When I am miserable I never hear from him. But I make a post on my journal saying how happy I am right now and how good things are going for me in a new relationship and SMACK, the next day I get these hate filled emails whose only purpose is to upset me.
So, of course, I write him back, but that will pretty much be the last time unless something changes drastically. I don't want to do this anymore. When we met in person awhile back, it was closure for me. Don't get me wrong, I still care about him alot but I am no longer going to drag this whole mess out, I don't want to, I don't need it. So, to my old friend I write, let it go and if you still want to be friends we can slowly start to talk again, but if I get one more of these emails from you, that's it, I am done. I hope you understand what I am saying to you, I really do. I still care about you and you know that if you or a member of your family ever really needed me, I would be there. But as far as all the hatred, I am done, I want NO part of it. Let it go.
Now, on to the good news, besides these emails I am talking about, I am great. I am really happy. I met a guy who really cares about me. We spend as much time together as possible and I love that. We have bets on the Super Bowl and I hope to hell I win, that way he has to take me to Ocean Shores for a weekend:-) Bottom line, I am very happy in my new relationship and it has been a very long time since I have had a guy treat me like a queen. I didn't realize how much that would mean to me. Since I am such a tomboy, I never really considered it that important, but it really is, I am glad I finally realize this. But I do know one thing for sure, if I ever screw this up (which I don't think I will), I really will be the stupidest bitch in the world because he is absolutely amazing.
So, that is all the news I have for you guys, I guess I wrote this to get some feedback from Paul, Sam and the rest of the lj crew, so hit me with it? Do you think I am wrong about this from a guys point of view?
Hope everyone has a great weekend, wooohooooo, Super Bowl, GO PANTHERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!