i wanna go away
Yeah i didnt feel like going to school today, but i dont want to feel like i lost.I hung out with shannon and richard again for the first time in a while.(sigh)We smoked not something im ever proud of. Got high.Got to confessing.Richard hit me in the gut and told me to get over what has happened.Shannon told me i need to stop bitching that it was only a friendship.Actually they helped im not letting this consume me.Im just dissapointed that everything turned out this way, and i didnt even say what i really wanted to say and i hope you read this.i never wanted to go out with you.If i did wouldnt i of wanted to go in youre house(i never did you had to make me)wouldnt i have let you actually touched my dick when we were in the car and i yelled stop touching my balls randomly,wouldnt i have actually showed you my room when you asked(it really wasnt dirty).no matter what i say i still will feel like crap because i know that it is mostly my fault that it doesnt matter how many times i apologize.What i did i did.I cant take it back.I took advantage of our friendship.There is no going back to were we where no matter what i want.Honestly i cant blame you anymore.I realize there is no excuse for what i hae done.I honestly now just hope for the best for you and accept my fate.