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im scared that i might do the wrong thing here im scared that i might hert a lot of people but i cant hurt my self anymore everyone allways tell me that i need to put myself before my freinds so i am i dont know what im saying here cause all i feel is confusion and i need help but i do know that i cant do this with out someones help and without someone second oppinion on me cuz i dont know anything anymore yeah you might see me and i might look happy but deep down im not happy and last night i relized that when i was at christinas house i threated to allmost kill someone last night that i really do love and i dont know what to do about it but all i do know is (sorry if this hurts anyone) the hole fact that kaila and jessica is killing me and im not shure if i can be friends with kaila anymore AGAIN but i think its the truth because i no im gonna do something bad and i dont want to hurt my self but hell what do i know im probably just jelouse wait i am but please if anyone read this someone out there please help me cause right now i cant help myself
elia
ps
happy thankgiving everyone
rip turkies
~~~~eat stuffing not turkies~~~~~