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do you ever feel like you dont mean shit to him anymore?... cuz i do, and it sucks so bad!
cuz its nice to have the feeling that you mean somthing special to someone who you feel the same, but for them to take that away, and make you feel like you mean nothing at all. that tears you down so much i dont think i'll ever be able to get back up...
when you try everything, work you ass off to make things better, and you arent getting anywhere makes you feel like shit too. but what really makes you feel like shit is the fact he lies to you so you dont wear his jeresy... wow! that really makes ya just cry cuz you know its a lie, i highly doubt the couches were like hey, lets give EVERYBODY their jersey but shaine...
god i'm stupid...every fucking time... and yet i still take it from every fucking guy cuz they say "oh i'm diffrent" "Im not like that" but what i feel the most stupid for is for beliving this one "i love you"...
i just want to go to bed and sleep away the pain...
i wish he would stop and think "wow, this is really hurting her, and maybe i should stop and start being how i use to be." but he wont if anything he'll think "well if i'm hurting her then i should leave her" or "he wont think of anything at all"
i feel used... stupid... worthless...taken advantage of... i mean god i would go to the end of the world for him... i would do anything for him, and all i've ever asked for was a little bit of his time... maybe i've been asking to much maybe this is all my fault, maybe i fucked up along the way... maybe i never really made him happy at all...
cuz its nice to have the feeling that you mean somthing special to someone who you feel the same, but for them to take that away, and make you feel like you mean nothing at all. that tears you down so much i dont think i'll ever be able to get back up...
when you try everything, work you ass off to make things better, and you arent getting anywhere makes you feel like shit too. but what really makes you feel like shit is the fact he lies to you so you dont wear his jeresy... wow! that really makes ya just cry cuz you know its a lie, i highly doubt the couches were like hey, lets give EVERYBODY their jersey but shaine...
god i'm stupid...every fucking time... and yet i still take it from every fucking guy cuz they say "oh i'm diffrent" "Im not like that" but what i feel the most stupid for is for beliving this one "i love you"...
i just want to go to bed and sleep away the pain...
i wish he would stop and think "wow, this is really hurting her, and maybe i should stop and start being how i use to be." but he wont if anything he'll think "well if i'm hurting her then i should leave her" or "he wont think of anything at all"
i feel used... stupid... worthless...taken advantage of... i mean god i would go to the end of the world for him... i would do anything for him, and all i've ever asked for was a little bit of his time... maybe i've been asking to much maybe this is all my fault, maybe i fucked up along the way... maybe i never really made him happy at all...