to beach house, after a good days biking adventure. i was awakened by tyler tossing the envelope in which contained my id card, that had been sent by jenny. which lightened the way for a brighter day once we finally awoke, it had been sent around a mid day which i consider to be too early for me. once i got my bearings for the day, i made some ( Read more... )

im pretty excited, for my new life, the good life and goddamit. i am hoping that i get my munny at 12 am or 1 am and then im going to fucking buy my ticket and jump on that bus at 4 am and be in texas by 10 30pm the same day, its gonna be one hell of a trip, but im so excited ( Read more... )

im so fucking irritated. after i just had to talk myself down last night, tragedy strikes. he lost his job, and theres some bitch named tamara hanging around making him dinner, does he think hes trying to play me or something? im no angel but the shit he says is so misleading. i dont need to be in control of him, hes not my lover, and i need to ( Read more... )

well im awake at my cuz' house on his couch been chatting with tyler ad ross, had lots o laughs not tired. i will be. i guess shit is on the cranium, thinking alot about that moment we meet, wondering if it will work or be temporary, and i dont know why the fuck i should care so much, i dont know why ive allowed myself to rely upon this so much, ( Read more... )

holy shit, ok so im on my rag and been alone for like 4 days watching movies, growing closer to trout. gawd, i would be depressed by now, but im so stoked for what lies ahead. ok so i was seeing this guy ryan in phoenix, but he was so hot/cold but we still agreed to meet during Isaac's birthday party me jay and zasha are going to, on the 24th. not ( Read more... )

my dream was crazy, i traveled to florida, it looked like water world in my dream, and they had a beautiful red moon, someone brought up the end was near, and there wasnt much time left, there were train tracks and a huge gated area where there was dirt under an overpass, much like the one in portland. i saw someone that recognized me, i got out my ( Read more... )

it was fun, weird, and a lot of other things. i need to stop falling in love, and i need to careless. i need to focus on my music, its been on the back burner, i need to write to finish songs, i need to play, im dont with az, its time to get on with it. i miss ross, and stuff

my ducks are some what in a row, and i have plans, they are almost fool proof. i plan to head over to phoenix and then tucson, just to see and maybe play some music. im getting nervous but i think i made the right choice. ive seen ross here and there and any hope of us being more than friends has flown out the window or carelessly been flushed into ( Read more... )

its always my heart6 or passion that drives me into a ditch, i try to be level headed and just not think about it, but as soon as i am face to face i unravel and a sense of belonging sets in, like we were meant to love, and be in love and as soon as i realize i had been dreaming to far a head im crushed. im no warrior the tears fill my eyes so ( Read more... )

being a woman fucking sucks. i should feel on top of the world right now. due to hiking so fucking hard yesterday. but no. my rag came to make me feel even more like shit. i dont even want to get up. and ross, is done. i hope i dont see him on weds. and even if i do, ill be nice but there is just no way im going to even try to communicate with him ( Read more... )