A change of heart? chap 2 (lemon advent)
”How much did you hear?” Kazuki just watched the bassist with a stoic expression on his face, not revealing any of the thoughts that were running like crazy through his mind at the moment.
“I… I think I heard enough. So what’s going on, you two breaking up or something?” Breaking up… No, no he couldn’t stand the thought of losing Byou. They had been together for two years now, had a life and a home together. He just couldn’t let all of that go so easily.
“It’s just a stupid misunderstanding, we’re not breaking up.” Kazuki tried to get pass Yuuto but the other grabbed his arm, seemingly not intending to let the guitarist go so easily.
“When we were in Finland, I know you felt it too, something changed between us… I’m not just talking about the fanservice, even if might have been a result of it. I mean don’t you remember what you said, and what you did?” Kazuki fidgeted with the sleeve of his shirt, trying to avoid Yuuto’s intensive stare.
“But you… You were so sad after that fight with Jin, I didn’t really think, I shouldn’t have kissed you…”
“And yet you asked me to do it again on stage. Come on Kazuki, don’t fool around with me!” The bassist had grabbed Kazuki’s chin and forced the other to look him in the eyes.
“Don’t you forget something Yuuto, what about Jin? Doesn’t he mean anything to you anymore?”
“Of course he does, I love him, but I’m not so sure it’s like a lover anymore. Isn’t that what you feel about Byou?” Kazuki once again tried to wriggle out of Yuuto’s grip, but this time the bassist didn’t let go so easily. “I’m not gonna tolerate you toying with me.” Kazuki didn’t know what to answer, whatever he said he would end up hurting someone.
“I promise I’m not toying with you but I really can’t take this discussion with you right now.” Kazuki made one final pull and managed to get himself free. He turned around and shot the bassist one final glance before he headed down the stairs; “Please don’t hate me.” The other man just sighed, realizing he was fighting a losing battle.
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When Kazuki got home he almost suspected the door to be locked, but it was indeed open so he stepped in, almost scared of breaking the silence that lingered over the apartment. For a moment he thought he was alone, but as he entered the kitchen he found his lover sitting at the table, drinking coffee and reading a magazine, completely ignoring the guitarist’s presence. Kazuki wasn’t sure what was worst, being yelled at or this agonizing…nothingness. He knew he had to say at least something.
“Uhm… Byou?” No response. “I, I’m sorry about what happened before, please can’t we at least talk about it?” The vocalist just continued reading, but now Kazuki had had it. His patience starting to boil over as he approached the other, grabbing Byou’s magazine and throwing it away. “Now you fucking listen, at least I’m trying to fix things, but you, you seem to act like it’s already over. Is that how much our relation is worth huh?!” Finally Byou looked up at him, but it was a look of complete disinterest.
“I’m not the one who fucked up in the first place, if this relationship means so much to you then you should be able to act like there is nothing between you and Yuuto, but you couldn’t say one word to defend yourself before, I think that says it all really. I don’t know for how long you’ve been fucking around but-“ Byou was effectively interrupted as Kazuki forcefully claimed his mouth in an intense kiss.
“If you don’t believe I want you then I’ll fucking show you.” Kazuki got of Byou and grabbed the blond’s hand, dragging him to his feet and towards the bedroom…
A/N - hmm let's see if I have time to catch up on the lemon advent thing under next week, sure hope so!
“I… I think I heard enough. So what’s going on, you two breaking up or something?” Breaking up… No, no he couldn’t stand the thought of losing Byou. They had been together for two years now, had a life and a home together. He just couldn’t let all of that go so easily.
“It’s just a stupid misunderstanding, we’re not breaking up.” Kazuki tried to get pass Yuuto but the other grabbed his arm, seemingly not intending to let the guitarist go so easily.
“When we were in Finland, I know you felt it too, something changed between us… I’m not just talking about the fanservice, even if might have been a result of it. I mean don’t you remember what you said, and what you did?” Kazuki fidgeted with the sleeve of his shirt, trying to avoid Yuuto’s intensive stare.
“But you… You were so sad after that fight with Jin, I didn’t really think, I shouldn’t have kissed you…”
“And yet you asked me to do it again on stage. Come on Kazuki, don’t fool around with me!” The bassist had grabbed Kazuki’s chin and forced the other to look him in the eyes.
“Don’t you forget something Yuuto, what about Jin? Doesn’t he mean anything to you anymore?”
“Of course he does, I love him, but I’m not so sure it’s like a lover anymore. Isn’t that what you feel about Byou?” Kazuki once again tried to wriggle out of Yuuto’s grip, but this time the bassist didn’t let go so easily. “I’m not gonna tolerate you toying with me.” Kazuki didn’t know what to answer, whatever he said he would end up hurting someone.
“I promise I’m not toying with you but I really can’t take this discussion with you right now.” Kazuki made one final pull and managed to get himself free. He turned around and shot the bassist one final glance before he headed down the stairs; “Please don’t hate me.” The other man just sighed, realizing he was fighting a losing battle.
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When Kazuki got home he almost suspected the door to be locked, but it was indeed open so he stepped in, almost scared of breaking the silence that lingered over the apartment. For a moment he thought he was alone, but as he entered the kitchen he found his lover sitting at the table, drinking coffee and reading a magazine, completely ignoring the guitarist’s presence. Kazuki wasn’t sure what was worst, being yelled at or this agonizing…nothingness. He knew he had to say at least something.
“Uhm… Byou?” No response. “I, I’m sorry about what happened before, please can’t we at least talk about it?” The vocalist just continued reading, but now Kazuki had had it. His patience starting to boil over as he approached the other, grabbing Byou’s magazine and throwing it away. “Now you fucking listen, at least I’m trying to fix things, but you, you seem to act like it’s already over. Is that how much our relation is worth huh?!” Finally Byou looked up at him, but it was a look of complete disinterest.
“I’m not the one who fucked up in the first place, if this relationship means so much to you then you should be able to act like there is nothing between you and Yuuto, but you couldn’t say one word to defend yourself before, I think that says it all really. I don’t know for how long you’ve been fucking around but-“ Byou was effectively interrupted as Kazuki forcefully claimed his mouth in an intense kiss.
“If you don’t believe I want you then I’ll fucking show you.” Kazuki got of Byou and grabbed the blond’s hand, dragging him to his feet and towards the bedroom…
A/N - hmm let's see if I have time to catch up on the lemon advent thing under next week, sure hope so!