obstacles, oh of all they knew

[kill_me_im_emo]

this may be coming out because im somewhat drunk or somewhat high.
i dont know how to explain how i feel. i love this city, i love the people i have met.
everything is going so well, with school and work. but i still cant get passed this awkwardness i have around people. people that are real cool, people that even invite me to things. i guess im just sick of not having someone to share my day with, ive met a few guys worth dating, things happend and shit wouldnt work out. im just sick of the same old guy i usually date.. the musician.

i just want to meet someone thats not like me at all. i just want something. i think honestly thats the only thing that bothers me out here. this may sound cliche but i just want someone to hug and hold me and i dont know. just be able to talk to.

i met this guy recently, which freaked me out, because he looks exactly like bo, but cuter.
and hes really fucking nice and i dont know, its weird. we hung out and it was cool.
but thats it. the fact that he looks like bo tottally turns me off. because yeah its just weird.

i just need to meet a decent guy. fuck.

im not a good catch.