Rescue? (x-posted to Myspace)
I have been informed by one of my friends that I am in constant need of rescue. I was unaware of this, but he was clear that he was tired of it. I admit that I do seem to have a dependency on my friends. When I am sad or depressed I call on them for support. Perhaps I do this too much, that was what I was told anyway.
Now this particular instance that I called I was having a massive asthma attack and I was scared. I could have called an ambulance but I am in so much debt that I would rather suffer. I didn't think I was asking a whole lot by asking him to drive me to a pharmacy to get an inhaler... Apparently I was.
If I have ever called you to come rescue me, I apologize. I will be working on that. Though I would rather ask for help when doing bad rather than treat the people I care about like dirt when I'm not doing well. I am trying to be self-sufficient. It is really hard for me. It was not the way I was raised. But damnit, I am trying!
To the person that so kindly pointed this out to me... I will never ask for your help again! I am sorry that I have inconvenienced you with my bull shit! When you have felt like crap in the past and been a total dick to me, I have still tried to comfort you... You don't pay attention.
If anyone feels that I call them too much for rescue, please let me know. The last thing I want to be is a burden on the people that I love.
Now this particular instance that I called I was having a massive asthma attack and I was scared. I could have called an ambulance but I am in so much debt that I would rather suffer. I didn't think I was asking a whole lot by asking him to drive me to a pharmacy to get an inhaler... Apparently I was.
If I have ever called you to come rescue me, I apologize. I will be working on that. Though I would rather ask for help when doing bad rather than treat the people I care about like dirt when I'm not doing well. I am trying to be self-sufficient. It is really hard for me. It was not the way I was raised. But damnit, I am trying!
To the person that so kindly pointed this out to me... I will never ask for your help again! I am sorry that I have inconvenienced you with my bull shit! When you have felt like crap in the past and been a total dick to me, I have still tried to comfort you... You don't pay attention.
If anyone feels that I call them too much for rescue, please let me know. The last thing I want to be is a burden on the people that I love.