i'm back bitches
I haven't updated this thing in forever. Too long actually, but since I have emotional issues I guess this would be a proper place to vent.
Yesterday I got a job at Pappouli's pizza. My first job since last August. So far so good but I seriously can't see myself washing dishes again, too much bullshit work. The past month has been fucked up. Two weeks ago my parents were in San Diego so of course I threw a party. Day 2 of my party ended up getting busted thanks to my sister, who called the cops on me. I'm really not too upset about it now (other than getting 3 charges and having to go to court) but after it happend you know I wanted to kill that bitch. Also last week I got bitch slapped by my old best friend Jenny which has totally changed the way we act around each other and will probably never be the same again. It's hard to even be cool when we're in the same room, this is just how I feel. The worst part about all of that is that she was totally misguided before she had the heart to slap me in the face. Pretty much Yana's doing for the most part. My relationship with Caisee is also starting to become sketchy because of Yana's doings. I don't understand what her motives are sometimes. I know I'm out of line with her sometimes and I know sometimes stupid shit comes out of my mouth in front of her but she's pretty much destroyed a few friendships which is totally uncalled for.
I've stopped smoking pot too. I'm two weeks clean (that bust probably changed my life). After the first week I realized how drugs control your life, even weed which isn't addicting seems to control you when it's all you're ever around. Since I stopped smoking weed I've been by myself alot more because most of my friends still choose to use it every single day and I'm not trying to be around it. It's funny how you learn who your friends are. I'm not complaining though, I've gotten to spend alot of time with new people these past couple weeks which has been really cool. I feel alot better now that I'm not getting blown every day. It's a nice feeling.
Prom is coming up and I've been pretty set on asking Caisee. I've had a crush on this girl all year and even though our friendship has had its ups and downs (currently down) she's the only person I'd even think about asking. I really want to surprise her when I ask her and I've come up with a really good idea on how I'm going to do this but at the same time I feel kinda weird doing something that sweet for her when I don't even know what she's thinking about me at the moment. Things need to be straightened out soon :\
Yesterday I got a job at Pappouli's pizza. My first job since last August. So far so good but I seriously can't see myself washing dishes again, too much bullshit work. The past month has been fucked up. Two weeks ago my parents were in San Diego so of course I threw a party. Day 2 of my party ended up getting busted thanks to my sister, who called the cops on me. I'm really not too upset about it now (other than getting 3 charges and having to go to court) but after it happend you know I wanted to kill that bitch. Also last week I got bitch slapped by my old best friend Jenny which has totally changed the way we act around each other and will probably never be the same again. It's hard to even be cool when we're in the same room, this is just how I feel. The worst part about all of that is that she was totally misguided before she had the heart to slap me in the face. Pretty much Yana's doing for the most part. My relationship with Caisee is also starting to become sketchy because of Yana's doings. I don't understand what her motives are sometimes. I know I'm out of line with her sometimes and I know sometimes stupid shit comes out of my mouth in front of her but she's pretty much destroyed a few friendships which is totally uncalled for.
I've stopped smoking pot too. I'm two weeks clean (that bust probably changed my life). After the first week I realized how drugs control your life, even weed which isn't addicting seems to control you when it's all you're ever around. Since I stopped smoking weed I've been by myself alot more because most of my friends still choose to use it every single day and I'm not trying to be around it. It's funny how you learn who your friends are. I'm not complaining though, I've gotten to spend alot of time with new people these past couple weeks which has been really cool. I feel alot better now that I'm not getting blown every day. It's a nice feeling.
Prom is coming up and I've been pretty set on asking Caisee. I've had a crush on this girl all year and even though our friendship has had its ups and downs (currently down) she's the only person I'd even think about asking. I really want to surprise her when I ask her and I've come up with a really good idea on how I'm going to do this but at the same time I feel kinda weird doing something that sweet for her when I don't even know what she's thinking about me at the moment. Things need to be straightened out soon :\