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It's this fuckin dream all the time. The same dream except it gets better
and better. I just can't get my mind off of it, I am drifting so far away from reality with every moment.
It's insane.
I hear myself speak and see my actions, sometimes I wonder who is this girl?
How can I be like this?
I've just been wishing I was a certain way for so long.(as I imagine all of you must aswell)
My heart get such a feeling when i think...I am the girl I want to be. It's not that i'm no longer flawed but quite the opposite... I embrace my flaws and i love them cause without them i'm just not human.
It's so reoccurring. Over and Over. The same thoughts, hopes, dreams and smiles. I cannot shake this amazing fantasy. I have not been participating in the real world whatsoever for the last 3 days. My brain just won't have it. I am stuuuuck dreaming, floating on a cloud. eeeeeeek.
My skin is actually fitting perfectly. I don't have to pull at it and rip it. I can wear it proudly and let it glow.
Everything is so damn exciting, I could scream. I won't cause it would scare the fuck out of michelle.
Scary,scary happiness. Being scared is what scares me. Don't EVER run away from happiness. You'd be a complete fool.
p.s. Getting told by complete strangers that I should be a designer...well I guess it's just scribbled across the sunrise.