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Okay, so...I'mm graduating in two days, and the festivities begin tomorrow. Bryn Mawr doesn't believe in quick graduations--it's a two day EVENT. My family is getting into town in a couple of hours, tomorrow is Convocation and Garden Party, and then Sunday is the actual graduation ceremony. I'm very excited.
It's funny that something so exciting can also be the same thing that is sending me into weird, unexplained depressions and fits of tears. I'm not sad about graduation, but I keep on experiencing these urges to cry. I'll see something that will remind me of something else, and I will suddenly find myself waxing nostalgic and unable to keep my emotions stable. It's weird. Not depression...just weird.
Unlike a good portion of my friends, I'm not going back to school in the Fall. I'm going to get a job. I'm going to be a teacher. And...I'm going to be an adult now. It's an overwhelming feeling to realize that, for the first time in my life, everything really is WIDE OPEN. I really will be moving ahead to a new part of my life pretty much all by myself, and that is quite a huge thing to think about.
It's funny that something so exciting can also be the same thing that is sending me into weird, unexplained depressions and fits of tears. I'm not sad about graduation, but I keep on experiencing these urges to cry. I'll see something that will remind me of something else, and I will suddenly find myself waxing nostalgic and unable to keep my emotions stable. It's weird. Not depression...just weird.
Unlike a good portion of my friends, I'm not going back to school in the Fall. I'm going to get a job. I'm going to be a teacher. And...I'm going to be an adult now. It's an overwhelming feeling to realize that, for the first time in my life, everything really is WIDE OPEN. I really will be moving ahead to a new part of my life pretty much all by myself, and that is quite a huge thing to think about.