riponfest sux
welp, i just got home from riponfest and it totally sux. i got reception though in one area and i checked my voicemail and there were 4 from kurt late last night. the way he was talking to me was like "oh, things aren't working out, i dunno about us, we really need to talk" and blah, blah, blah. but he really sounds serious and after wut i told him today (sorree, can't tell you guys) he acts like it doesn't matter (and trust me, it really does) and he's at another freaking club until 10. he was at one last night and the night before with brandon. i mean, wut am i supposed to think? i am nearly 3000 miles away and i can hardly talk to him and god knows wut he is doing. but i can tell you this, i am for sure as hell not doing a damn thing and honestly, not having any fun wutsoever. but see, he thinks i am and that's really stupid because i am in the middle of freaking nowhere where everything is small and green. i hate it. no ifs, ands, or buts. and i can't get a hold of my mom. it totally sux. but it's okay i guess. as long as i keep myself busy, i won't cry. tonight i am jus gonna finish updating this and go to sleep. then as soon as i get up i have to get ready cuz we are leaving back to minnesota tommorrow. thank the lord. yay! im leaving in less than a week! that's so azwesome. i can't wait to get back to my normal life. haha. that makes me feel better. but who knows about me and kurt. i hope things get better because i don't wanna lose him. he says that i have been acting different and i don't know how. hmmmm, maybe cuz i am across the country with no one i know to comfort me and i am miserable and trying to deal with it the best way i possibly can. wow, that makes sense (haha, sarcasm). welp, i better go cuz people are prolly annoyed with hearing the clicking noise of the computer keys. talk to you all later, kilie.