have you ever been alone in a crowded room?

[kileywins]

reading over entries from so long ago
when i wanted nothing more than a definition of love
i wanted to feel that warmth
understand that emotion

i came pretty close
was it everything i hoped for?
yes. and more
was it everything i feared?
definitely

and now that i've discovered the place in my heart
that i spent so long trying to fill
what do i do with its emptiness?

was it better to question whether it even existed
or know that it does, and be painfully aware of its power
but have nothing to fill it with?

::ki::